jus some things tryin to figure out...
maybe i shouldnt be writing a journal entry write with the way i feel right now. overwhelmed nd shit.
i dont get it man. life. i dont think ive ever known someone who had died.
one of my best friends in uganda mom had just died. i fucking adore the hell outta this kid.
its alway a good time. we can talk about anything. last time he was over we sat on my swingchair on my balcony talk about things that matter, family-school-future-past-current.
he told me how his mom was real sick and all. we talked about my mom. my family. i know hes been hurting and shit. his dad wouldnt tell him what she was sick wit. but thats not the point.
i dont know.. she died day after i left to south africa, i talked to kevin on monday he didn't tell me anything.
week before i called him a couple see if he wanted catch a flick right.. i go to the mall i see him driving by kinda scruffy looking. i didn't say nothin tho.
he always telling me how he has to be with his dad otherwise his dad gets depressed. i told him its cool you love your dad. love him. and care for him. but not like that.
its not stable. its like its reversed you he take care of him now.
hes worried if hes out too long that something bad will happen.
all im saying is do things for you..and only you.. comes a point in your life when you gotta start making decisions...living in uganda with your dad is not gonna help shit you know. your about to be 20. oh man do the right thing brother. i cant tell you this in person.
i'll see you tomorrow. and hope you dont flake.
i dont get it man. life. i dont think ive ever known someone who had died.
one of my best friends in uganda mom had just died. i fucking adore the hell outta this kid.
its alway a good time. we can talk about anything. last time he was over we sat on my swingchair on my balcony talk about things that matter, family-school-future-past-current.
he told me how his mom was real sick and all. we talked about my mom. my family. i know hes been hurting and shit. his dad wouldnt tell him what she was sick wit. but thats not the point.
i dont know.. she died day after i left to south africa, i talked to kevin on monday he didn't tell me anything.
week before i called him a couple see if he wanted catch a flick right.. i go to the mall i see him driving by kinda scruffy looking. i didn't say nothin tho.
he always telling me how he has to be with his dad otherwise his dad gets depressed. i told him its cool you love your dad. love him. and care for him. but not like that.
its not stable. its like its reversed you he take care of him now.
hes worried if hes out too long that something bad will happen.
all im saying is do things for you..and only you.. comes a point in your life when you gotta start making decisions...living in uganda with your dad is not gonna help shit you know. your about to be 20. oh man do the right thing brother. i cant tell you this in person.
i'll see you tomorrow. and hope you dont flake.