B for Burrito

Mar 27, 2006 04:38

So yeah ....haven't updated this thing in like a bazillion gagillion years....either been too busy and at the end of the day way too tired to write...plus i seem to be more addicted to myspace these days weather it be getting used to updating my life events on the blog there, playing the games, talking with friends, fixing up the site, or running and promoting Alon's bands site, which people should check out and friend if u all have a myspace. Most of the recordings on there are really old demo's but still decent for the time being...at least there is something on the site to share a little bit of their sound but i am trying to get more on there. At the moment they are working really hard on their first full length album. I wish them the best of luck since i hear over there they are starting to get air play. So yes the site for them is www.myspace.com/somethingcorner Go check them out. Also many thanks to Jen for helping me fix the background for the site...it's freaking hot!

A lot has happened since my last entry on this thing i know but i am gonna spare the long entry i could write right now...cause one it is late and two im stubborn and seem to want to write more random stuff this time around. But if any of you wanna get caught up you can check my myspace and read the blogs. If you are curious the url is www.myspace.com/musicalspirit I know this may seem weird like "what is she promoting her site?" No...i just realized i never update this LJ anymore which is a bit sad, and most of the people i have as friends on here only know of my LJ so I was just giving people a heads up that i am not dead...i just am writing on myspace more these days. One nice thing lately is I turned 20...and i know it sounds weird...but i already feel much older and a bit more mature... i think it is more that... i know i am no longer a teenager. I am an adult and as such I think I am more ready and wanting to take more responsibility. The feeling of acting more of an adult and mature is a great feeling for me and so I am working hard to make that happen. But it feels nice...at first it was kinda scary and at times still is... It's kinda sad to think that my adolescence is gone...a time where i didn't have to stress over responsibility. At the same time it is kinda nice being able to take hold of my life even more. Knowing more of where I am going these days. I am changing my major now to Music Education. I decided upon this cause i absolutely love music as most of you know and I thought to myself...if I don't make it big as a musician and artist I would hate to not having something to fall back on that involved music. I want it a part of my life forever and always so I thought the next best thing would be to teach it. Either piano, voice, choir director or just a general music teacher. I wanna teach it all. I see the impact so many of my music teachers have had on me and so many other people...and If i could leave an everlasting imprint on peoples lives like that...that would make me just as happy and satisfied at the end of the day. As I said before...I'm realizing more and more that I am at a place in my life where i can't depend on my parents all the time for everything. I know i will need their help in many ways until I graduate college but I really want to try and attack all these challenges and win in the end knowing I can take responsibility for all these scary and amazing things. I know I won't be alone in my journey...as corny as I am... ever since i gained more of my faith back... I know I am not alone. I have someone watching over me all the time and helping me a long the way. I don't know but lately more and more I feel some sort of presence around me saying I am not alone and i look at everything good that keeps happening down to the tiniest little detail and think to myself "Thank You"....it's nice. It really is. And I also have many amazing friends who have just been such blessings in my life. They are also what helps keep me going and it is such a nice feeling to have.

I would go into more details about my birthday events cause boy were there a lot...but i will leave that long ass entry for my myspace. As I said i just thought i would update something on here so I guess i am just writing whatever comes out of my head while I listen to my music.

One thing i do wanna say that is pretty recent...whoever said they didn't want to see V for Vendetta....u fail at life...im sorry...I went with Tim, Alyssa and Van last night to see that movie...and it already started off amazing with the preview...X-men 2...looks so freakin amazing... i was about to have an orgasm hahaha as well as the preview for Pirates of the Caribbean two...omg....just ....love! Anyway Alyssa and I got to Silver Spring early and i had the most ingenious idea. We hadn't had dinner and were starving...I looked at Alyssa's purse and thought....well that sure is big enough to hold a couple burritos. Told Alyssa we should sneak in Chipotle and we so did. We had a burrito an a movie...Hence B for Burrito with V for Vendetta. It was delicious and amazing. All i can say about the movie honestly...the one popular word to describe it is ORGASMIC!... I was so speechless and was like so almost turned on by the acting and action and intensity of the plot and omg....just wow....it fucking kicks ass! And I love the actor's voice who played V...well i mean i loved it before... it's the guy who playe agent smith in the Matrix....and his enunciation was flawless and his moves and mannors and oh god the fight scenes... WOW! I also love Natalie Portman. This entire movie just made me like so moved and in awe and i almost cried a couple times and it was one of those movies that Tim and Alyssa even agreed...you really didn't want it to end. You wanted to see more and have it keep going. I was glad it was a pretty decent length movie cause I would have hated it being any shorter. I still want more though. I may have to see it again. I do want to get the graphic novel of it now. But i had to buy another book today I had been wanting instead cause the costs were just like "ok buy one now..get the other when u get your next paycheck" So I got "Without You: A memoir of love, love, and the music RENT" It is Anthony Rapp's (guy who played Mark) biography of his experience during that time and about the musical and all the amazing things going into it and yeah. Had to get it. But yeah so V for Vendetta....amazing...I had trouble not saying the words "That movie kicked ass" every minute or so...Alyssa and I were very very pleased and happy...and I think i am attracted by the idea of a very sophisticated mysterious man in a mask and cape who is very articulate. If you see or have seen the movie you will understand.

I have been shopping like crazy these days... I think it is cause even though i got some great gifts rather amazing gifts for my birthday this year (things that I didn't even know i wanted) I didn't get the things I had been wanting in like forever...didn't get one thing on my list which shocked me like no other...And i kinda was like going crazy without any of those things...so I took matters into my own hands.. of course I have not bought everything on their...but someday it will happen. I used the rest of my dad's money he gave me as part of my gift buying. Which helped when I went to Tower Records and bought 3 CD's and a DVD. I got "The Story of Us" for only 9 bucks. And I got the new 30 Seconds to Mars album for the same price. A long with those I got Waking Ashland and The All-American Rejects. I am obsessed with these CD's they are all so amazing and each song after the other is just wow... I Can't stop listening to them and sometimes have trouble decided which to put on first when I get into my car. I also bought a couple CD's earlier that weren't on the list. When I was at the beach I got Yellowcard's first CD cause I had been wanting it for a while but forgot until I saw it and saw it was 10 bucks without tax cause no tax in Delaware. I then went to Border's and got Train Wreck by Boys Night Out....an amazing concept album. The story is so sad at times but very powerful and moving and I seriously want to be able to turn it either into a rock opera or a movie cause i can seriously see each scene and movement with each lyric being sung and it is just amazing. This band has made powerful melodic rock ballads as well as keeping some of their original sound and creating some just hard rocking songs. I also love the lyrics. Even if you didn't take them into the actual context of the story...the symbolism they use is something I am in love with. Very dramatic at times but so heartfelt and just wow. It something I wish I had written. There is this one song I love on it called Relapsing. All of the song titles are single words like "Medicating" and "Recovering." It goes with the path of the story really which is kind of cool. I originaly thought all I would write in this entry were song lyrics of some of the songs I have been attached to these days or just been loving in the past few hours but then thought I should write more...but since I am trying to spare all the major details of the past week and use it in my entry on myspace I will end here and leave you with some song lyrics of songs I think are amazing and think people should give a listen to...Either that or wait til u see me and I can play u the CD's. I seriously would type every single song on all of these CD's if I could but that would be a bit much, yet they are all so good but I will cut it down to a couple really amazing ones. Hope everyone has been well and sorry it took me so long. Much Love!

"Relapsing"- Boys Night Out

Last call at the hospital
You slept through it all
And these four walls warn you
That your surgery, it might not be the key
To fix the memory of you and me

Doctor I don't know what I've done
There's more to this than my
Ex-love and my ex-limbs could ever in my life begin to explain
Everytime I think of her and what went on that night
I don't see it, Instead I hear it
A song so awful and so perfect

Last call at the hospital
You slept through it all
And these four walls warn you
That your surgery, it might not be the key
To fix the memory of you and me

Doctor I don't know what I'm gonna do
I need this song to be shouted out
And to be heard by everyone
It's like each word and every chord refused to be ignored
This is bigger than me
But with not hands and even less skill
I don't know how it ever will come out

Doctor I think it's her I hear
It's always been
But if this pain can be arranged
In such a way to bring out beauty
Then, well, who am I to stop it?
I'll bring her back and I won't stop until it's done
Until this nightmare's undone
I need her

Last call at the hospital
You slept through it all
And these four walls warn you
That your surgery, it might not be the key
To fix the memory of you and
Of you and me

I need her
I need this
The saddest song can sing themselves, and just sing along
So if death's the answer, the the question is the trigger
And I'm just the firing pin.
Yeah I'm just a messenger
So if death's the answer, then the question is the trigger
And I'm just a firing pin.
And I'm just a messenger
Doomed to detonate on delivery

Last call at the hospital
You slept through it all
And these four walls warn you
That you surgery, it might not be the key
To fix the memory of you and me

Last call at the hospital
You slept through it all
And these four walls warn you
That you surgery, it might not be the key
To fix the memory of you and me

"Dance Inside"-The All-American Rejects

You don't have to move, you don't have to speak
Lips for biting.
You're staring me down, a glance makes me weak
Eyes for striking
Now I'm twisting up when I'm twisted with you
Brush so lightly
And time trickles down, and I'm breathing for two
Squeeze so tightly.

I'll be fine, You'll be fine.
This moment seems so long
Don't waste now, precious time
We'll dance inside the song

What makes the one to shake you down?
Each touch belongs to each new sound
Say now you want to shake me too
Move down to me, slip into you

She sinks in my mind as she sheds through her skin
Touch like taste like fire
Hands to know what eyes no longer defend
Hands to fuel desire

I'll be fine, you'll be fine
This moment seems so long
Don't waste now, precious time
We'll dance inside the song

What makes the one to shake you down?
Each touch belongs to each new sound
Say now you want to shake me too
Move down to me, slip into you

Ooo, Ah
Ooo, Ah
Ooo, Ah
Ooo, Ah
Ooo, Ah

And I'll be fine, you'll be fine
Is this fine? I'm not fine
Give me pieces, give me things to stay awake (Stay awake)

What makes the one to shake you down?
Each touch belongs to each new sound
Say now you want to shake me too
Move down to me, slip into you

"Straitjacket Feeling"- The All-American Rejects

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breaht now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straitjacket feeling
So maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
Off a list of other, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
To take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding by letting go of you

And when the memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
And just the thought of you I fear
It falls away
Yesterday was hell

But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me
But today I'm fine without
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

"Shades of Grey"-Waking Ashland (I love this song not only for the really cool piano part but the eventual build up!)

I, and I am to blame
I sit there in shame
I threw you away again
And I, I send you my best
I tried to lay this to rest
When you were my everything

Shades of Grey
Please fade away
Oh what have I said in vain?

Hey, and I'll look away
Pretend I'm okay
I'm back on the road again
And please, and could it be true?
That I still love you
And My love's unworthy

Shades of Grey
Please fade away
And Oh what have I said in vain?

Are you listening to my words?
And I saw your smile pass me by and it landed far from me
(And what does that mean?)

Shades of Grey
Please fade away
Oh, what have I said in vain?

I, and I rain away
For I was afraid
Afraid you'd be everything

"I Am For You"- Waking Ashland (Their biggest single right now. Amazing piano and guitar combined)

Something's very wrong here
Your hear has frozen over
And something's very strange here
You've lost all desire
The comfort we create to prive we're something,
But we're starving
Screaming in the night 'cause you want answers
From the one
And there's hope again

Don't give up
You're not thinking
Don't give up
Just keep seeking, oh yeah
And I, I am for you
And I, I will love you
And I, I am for you
And I, I will save you

Come and take my face
Or forver I will walk alone
And all the same mistakes
'Cause I know you, I deny you
Days go by and choices still remain forever
Right and wrong is black and white
The illusions of this world
And there's hope again

Don't give up
You're not thinking
Don't give up
Just keep seeking, oh yeah
And I , I am for you
And I , I will love you
And I , I am for you
And I , I will save you

I send myself to you
Yes always and always
I send myself to you

I send myself to you
Yes always and always
I send my love to you

And I , I am for you
And I , I will love you
And I , I am for you
And I , I will save you

And you found today
And You found today
And You found today
Your life today
And you found today
And you found today
And you found today
Your life today

Ok I think i shared enough lyrics with you all today ....but yeah Now I am gonna go read a chapter of "Without You" and then fall a sleep. Yay for having work in the morning...Night night!
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