Before You'd Have A Chance To Call...I'll Be On The Next Train Home..
Really i have nothing much to write about... i mean i could write about what i have been doing the past couple days....Did another Open mic night that was more awesome than the first.... i totally improved on my angry song but it went fine and i let it all out which felt amazing, but honestly some of the emotional stuff i have dealt with these past couple of days i don't even feel like getting into cause it just makes me even more stressed and angry and why should i talk about it... i talked about it way too much that i really don't feel like typing it out. Other than that, had sushi with Denise which was so much fun cause i missed her so much and i am going to ren fest on saturday with her which will be even more fun. Thank You Denise. For everything.
Watched Kill Bill one and two with Alyssa and Lindsay yesterday....oh man was i getting way too many ideas in my head...it's ok cause im gonna have an amazing fantasy seen kill bill style in Alyssa's screen play haha! But that movie kicks so much ass...Quentin is a fucking genius! We finished sex and the city...what an emotional ending...in a happy way though. Alyssa and I talked for a bit while Lindsay took a shower...Alyssa forced me to talk practically... i didn't even realize i wanted to talk about anything until she pulled what i seem to call an Alex now....not letting shit slide when u know someone has something on their mind. I hate crying.
Back tracking...Tuesday we went to hang out with Alex and watch Empire Records. Always a good time when Empire Records is on. We had chinese before hand with Alyssa's dad and Alex and that was pretty fun as well. so yeah....those are pretty much the short version of events here...
I think I am going to start writing a play again.... Alyssa has inspired me....either a play or my own screen play but i have never written a screen play before so i probably wouldn't know how to do it properly... i have written a play before (unfinished til this day...i wrote in high school) so i probably would do better with that....maybe that would be good therapy for me as well besides the music.
Bah...so yeah im just sitting waiting for my next class to start and then who knows what. Listening to Jimmy Eat World on MySpace.... i love this song....also been listening to Crossfade...maybe I will just post lyrics for the rest of this entry cause i don't feel like rambeling on about my life anymore ...maybe typing out lyrics to songs I feel a connection with will make me feel better...i dunno...maybe the weather today is just getting to me....ok im stopping now...
"Over"-Jimmy Eat World
I'm not exactly sure what I should say
Everything I do is a mistake
Your attention is attention
(it doesn't matter if it's fake or real)
I'll take it if I get it, oh
I've made up my mind
I'll do it over, anytime
You're over it, over me
Present just physically
Last words from the dying scene
You're over me
You're over me
I really need to hear how great I am
Cause I can't even get up out of bed
Now say it like you mean it
(It doesn't matter how I really feel)
Sing it back softly,oh
You got to be strong
and I've been empty oh so long
You're over it, over me
Present just physically
Last words from the dying scene
You're over me
The old days all went bad
Rotted, wilted black
Before you'd have a chance to call
I'll be on the next train home
Add it to the endless list
Of all the things we'll never, ever know!
You're over it, over me
Present just physically
Last words from the dying scene
You're over me
You're over me
You're over me
"So Far Away"-Crossfade
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
(I've been changing but you'll never see me now)
Now, I'm blaming you for everything
No more holding it in
How many years can I pretend
Nothing never goes the way it should
No more sitting in this place
Hoping you might see it my way
Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
I'm so far away
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more waiting for the end
Of every day that I will spend
Wishing that I only had a choice
No more pushing you away
Cause I will be busy watching things go my way
Never looking back on this anymore
Because what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
I'm so far away
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now Im blaming you for everything
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
Now I'm blaming you for everything!
I'm so far away!
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Hey hey I've been saved
With sun shining on my pain
Getting me through this day
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Feels so good to say
I'm so far away
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you
I'm so far away!
Watched Kill Bill one and two with Alyssa and Lindsay yesterday....oh man was i getting way too many ideas in my head...it's ok cause im gonna have an amazing fantasy seen kill bill style in Alyssa's screen play haha! But that movie kicks so much ass...Quentin is a fucking genius! We finished sex and the city...what an emotional ending...in a happy way though. Alyssa and I talked for a bit while Lindsay took a shower...Alyssa forced me to talk practically... i didn't even realize i wanted to talk about anything until she pulled what i seem to call an Alex now....not letting shit slide when u know someone has something on their mind. I hate crying.
Back tracking...Tuesday we went to hang out with Alex and watch Empire Records. Always a good time when Empire Records is on. We had chinese before hand with Alyssa's dad and Alex and that was pretty fun as well. so yeah....those are pretty much the short version of events here...
I think I am going to start writing a play again.... Alyssa has inspired me....either a play or my own screen play but i have never written a screen play before so i probably wouldn't know how to do it properly... i have written a play before (unfinished til this day...i wrote in high school) so i probably would do better with that....maybe that would be good therapy for me as well besides the music.
Bah...so yeah im just sitting waiting for my next class to start and then who knows what. Listening to Jimmy Eat World on MySpace.... i love this song....also been listening to Crossfade...maybe I will just post lyrics for the rest of this entry cause i don't feel like rambeling on about my life anymore ...maybe typing out lyrics to songs I feel a connection with will make me feel better...i dunno...maybe the weather today is just getting to me....ok im stopping now...
"Over"-Jimmy Eat World
I'm not exactly sure what I should say
Everything I do is a mistake
Your attention is attention
(it doesn't matter if it's fake or real)
I'll take it if I get it, oh
I've made up my mind
I'll do it over, anytime
You're over it, over me
Present just physically
Last words from the dying scene
You're over me
You're over me
I really need to hear how great I am
Cause I can't even get up out of bed
Now say it like you mean it
(It doesn't matter how I really feel)
Sing it back softly,oh
You got to be strong
and I've been empty oh so long
You're over it, over me
Present just physically
Last words from the dying scene
You're over me
The old days all went bad
Rotted, wilted black
Before you'd have a chance to call
I'll be on the next train home
Add it to the endless list
Of all the things we'll never, ever know!
You're over it, over me
Present just physically
Last words from the dying scene
You're over me
You're over me
You're over me
"So Far Away"-Crossfade
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
(I've been changing but you'll never see me now)
Now, I'm blaming you for everything
No more holding it in
How many years can I pretend
Nothing never goes the way it should
No more sitting in this place
Hoping you might see it my way
Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
I'm so far away
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more waiting for the end
Of every day that I will spend
Wishing that I only had a choice
No more pushing you away
Cause I will be busy watching things go my way
Never looking back on this anymore
Because what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
I'm so far away
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now Im blaming you for everything
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
Now I'm blaming you for everything!
I'm so far away!
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Hey hey I've been saved
With sun shining on my pain
Getting me through this day
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Feels so good to say
I'm so far away
I've been changing but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you
I'm so far away!