Let The Lover's Spirit Be Born Again...
I realized more and more what I want to do...what would make me happier with my life...And it is playing my music. I don't want to do anything else but play my music for people. Have them listen and enjoy my music. I want to be able to communicate to the world through my music. I think it is why I seriously have actually disciplined myself to sit at my keyboard or piano and write out music and lyrics, song after song. I am seriously getting ready to go into the studio and record some rough demos so I can then go get some shows at some small venues. I do believe in my schooling but for some reason my music I realize more than ever now is more important to me....it is my life and it is what I want to do with my life. Weather it means teaching it or performing it (ideally performing it), but it has to be a part of my life and career always. I still want to study psychology and have that as a fall back on of course but this is what makes me happy. A degree will make me happy and feel accomplished and I am not going to give up on that, but music and performing is what would make me the most happy i feel now more than ever. Being able to perform would give me so much satisfaction with my life also knowing i had loved ones by my side supporting me because they know it makes me happy and they believe in me. I used to just write music almost as a hobby and yes I was a serious dreamer about wanting to do this professionally, but I never really stuck to it. I never really put the serious work into it. I am ready to now. I want to do this. This is what I want. I cannot wait til I get to actually perform for the first time in a venue other than a school. I am hoping I get to do it in about a month cause i am seriously writing. It is like I can't stop. Idea after idea keeps popping into my head. I just want to sing. I want to play and I want to let my soul live on through my music. It may sound crazy but just feeling the music I sing and the way I have begun to play again...I actually start crying while playing my music. It is one of the most amazing feelings u can have. It is almost painful but really it is absolutely beautiful. Right now, this moment, just feeling my music and others music and performing and laying under the stars, driving through the night without a care in the world...that's what is making me feel happy and free... i wouldn't trade that for anything else....and that to me, that feeling, Is what life should be all about. Take a deep breath...things will get back to where they should be again...just breathe, believe, and follow your dreams....actually don't follow your dreams anymore....lead them into reality.
Well I am going to go finish writing up some lyrics for a new song I am working on and then finish another journal entry and then go to sleep for my day of one class, but it's ok cause I get to see Linda and Van today which excites me greatly. I have missed hanging out with them. Until next time. Good night to all.
P.S.
I love this song so of course I have to post the lyrics cause it's just such an awesome song...
"Spin"-Lifehouse
I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know
Where I'll be
Than be alone and convinced that I know
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
Oh you and I wouldn't change a thing
Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
'Cause I know i'm not sure
About anything
But you wouldn't have it any other way
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
Oh you and I wouldn't change a thing
Spinning Turning Watching Burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking Crawling Climbing Falling
All my life has found its meaning
You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing!
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
Oh you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
...k night
Well I am going to go finish writing up some lyrics for a new song I am working on and then finish another journal entry and then go to sleep for my day of one class, but it's ok cause I get to see Linda and Van today which excites me greatly. I have missed hanging out with them. Until next time. Good night to all.
P.S.
I love this song so of course I have to post the lyrics cause it's just such an awesome song...
"Spin"-Lifehouse
I'd rather chase your shadow all my life
Than be afraid of my own
I'd rather be with you
I'd rather not know
Where I'll be
Than be alone and convinced that I know
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
Oh you and I wouldn't change a thing
Everything I know has let me down
So I will just let go
Let you turn me inside out
'Cause I know i'm not sure
About anything
But you wouldn't have it any other way
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
Oh you and I wouldn't change a thing
Spinning Turning Watching Burning
All my life has found its meaning
Walking Crawling Climbing Falling
All my life has found its meaning
You and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing!
And the world keeps spinning round
My world's upside down
And I wouldn't change a thing
I've got nothing else to lose
I lost it all when I found you
And I wouldn't change a thing
Oh you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
No, you and I wouldn't change a thing
...k night