Daybreak
Category: Paramore
Author: riot_angel_24
Description: A Josh and Hayley Fanfic
Hayley Nichole Williams.
"Idontunderstand," I rushed the words out of my mouth.
Josh was my first love. That's all I could say. To me, that's all that matters.
I couldn't take that what he considered "love" was gone.
"Hayley," he comforted me.. "It's going to be alright," he paused. "I think...I think we should take a break. I dont think it's the best for the band."
"Josh." I tried to sound strong, but I could feel my eyes watering. "You..You...Promised..."
I suddenly hated this room. All these memories.. Flooding back to me, happening all at the same time. It felt like a smack in the face. All the memores of Josh and me replayed. I felt like a loser thinking of this now, but I couldn't stop. It was a natural instinct. A tear slide down my face. I didnt even know I was crying. I felt a hand wipe away the tear.
"Hayley," he repeated, in a soft voice. I brushed away his hand ; suddenly angry.
"I...You..." So many emotions flooded through me all at the same time. I didnt know what to say. I wanted to say how much I loved him, how much hen meant to me; how much I hated him.. How much it hurt. For all the nights I couldn't sleep thinkng about him. How it was all a memory. And how memories fade. I wanted to scream. I wanted to yell; but all that came out was, "...Never loved me." in a whisper. I looked at his eyes. He looked away. Unable to face me, my first impression was that it was true. He never has, and he never will, a voice in my head came from nowhere. Right , I told myself; I picked up the mess I was, and with arms crossed, headed for the door.
Josh didn't say anything, but in the corner of my eye, I could see he was sad. If not; almost torn.
What was I thinking? Screw him, He's not worth it, I kept repeating; hoping that one day, I may actually believe it.