well i cant just make it all go away, but you wanna know something? you were wrong about a lot of stuff in there. like letting everyone down... cuz you havent let me down. in fact, uve done everything right... and thats not something i say to anyone... in fact, this is something huge for me cuz i dont trust anyone any more. and when you said that theres no good in you, yeah, thats bull shit. if there wasnt, you can trust me on this one, i would not hang out with you, talk to you, tell people i know you... you may be a little rough aroung the edges sometimes, but you are not a bad person. and even if ur sitting there reading this going "youre completely wrong, you just cant see it," let me tell you something. i know some people who have nothing but hate and evil in them. and you, darlin, are nothing like them. and this shit about losing 20 lbs, what the hell is that about? if u lose 20 lbs ur going to look like a pencil... and thats disgusting. (course i guess i have no right to make a comment on this one, but watch that stop me.) and now on to my other point. the whole cutting thing... it doesnt make you weak, and i would never look at you and roll my eyes cuz u cut. u obviously do it for a reason, and obviously you see no other way to make yourself feel better. let me just say that that does not make you any less of a person. so you cut. whoopdee doo... i tend to be anorexic... that doesnt mean that were horrible people. it means that something happened to us to change the way our brain works, and how we see the world. and your brain is not something thats easily controlled. and one more thing, how can you even think that what your dad said is right? if you only looked out for yourself, would you call me to see if i was ok? no, ud just go on with your life without a second thought. and if u truely were a selfish spoiled bitch, there is no way in hell id still be talking to you cuz those people piss me off faster than anything. and you wouldnt still be reading this cuz ud be refusing any and all help. and im guessing youre still reading. whether its cuz u actually like what i have to say or cuz u want to know the lil bia typing all this... which youre going to have to wait a few more sentence for.... my point here is that u really arent what youre thinking you are. i hate to go all psychobabble on you, and im trying my best not to, but your brain and emotions are being clouded by everything thats going on in your life. youre going through some seriously tough shit, no doubt about that... and thinking some stuff like this is totally not unusual... i just wanted to let you know that none of it is true. and i want to make sure that u know i mean everything i say... im not one of those ppl who lies their ass of to make someone else feel better... cuz when the person finds out u were lying, it gets ugly. and i dont like it when it gets ugly. anyway, call me whenever you need me... cept u cant call the house after 10:30 and my cell is always low on minutes... (oops... i like to talk... my parents just cant seem to see that... but this is about u not me so im shutting up)... and i think u figured out who i am by now... if not, well, i spose i could tell you... but u shoulda figured it out by now. ~mary~ o damn i gave it away. :P
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