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i cant stop crying.
it wasnt supposed to be this way.
i didnt want to remember you as a jackass. i wanted to tell you how i felt about you.
but you couldnt handle that could you? no.
just fucking leave for fucking vermont
and leave me to leave you absolutly awful messages of me crying and telling you that all i asked you to do was say goodbye.
and why? why the fuck would you do that? just tell me and ill stop calling.
but i bet he wont call back.
ever.
i bet he doesnt even listen to the whole message.
ak;lsfjiajdsfoiafld.
i only want some closure for once. it always ends so vaguely with him. theres never really a goodbye. he just kind of disappears and comes around again when he feels like it. and for me with no closure i can never fully be over him. i just need to say goodbye and the phone is not really adaquete for that.
i dont deserve this. at all. all i want from my life is a nice boy who wants more than sex and wont hurt me every time he comes around.
but if we could have everything we wanted i guess my aunt wouldnt have brain cancer and i guess my mother wouldnt be having surgery and i guess i wouldnt be here now.
i have to get out of here.
this is insane.
i cant think.
it wasnt supposed to be this way.
i didnt want to remember you as a jackass. i wanted to tell you how i felt about you.
but you couldnt handle that could you? no.
just fucking leave for fucking vermont
and leave me to leave you absolutly awful messages of me crying and telling you that all i asked you to do was say goodbye.
and why? why the fuck would you do that? just tell me and ill stop calling.
but i bet he wont call back.
ever.
i bet he doesnt even listen to the whole message.
ak;lsfjiajdsfoiafld.
i only want some closure for once. it always ends so vaguely with him. theres never really a goodbye. he just kind of disappears and comes around again when he feels like it. and for me with no closure i can never fully be over him. i just need to say goodbye and the phone is not really adaquete for that.
i dont deserve this. at all. all i want from my life is a nice boy who wants more than sex and wont hurt me every time he comes around.
but if we could have everything we wanted i guess my aunt wouldnt have brain cancer and i guess my mother wouldnt be having surgery and i guess i wouldnt be here now.
i have to get out of here.
this is insane.
i cant think.