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A new frustration, so on that score, I'm giving up. There's no ill will; I'm not mad. But I truly cease to care. There are some mental constructs that are simply too powerful to break, and from the outside, with an eye towards feelings-- forget about it. Things will be as you have made them. Realize that and you can make things better. Don't, and here you are again.
Christmas was good. I was thinking I did a really good job on presents this year but now I'm not so sure. Long stretch of nothing until its back to cow country I go, and I can't have that. I need a job. (Have you heard that one before?) And I want to read, and to write. I bought a chair, a good one. I'm excited about things again. It's always nice. Seeing Marissa is also nice lately. It's lived in, it's comfortable, and anyway we always get along. Who knows what's next?
I'd like to get in shape again, but I can't afford a gym, the one at school is too crowded and too far, and I swore a dark unholy oath I would never work at the Y again....
Christmas was good. I was thinking I did a really good job on presents this year but now I'm not so sure. Long stretch of nothing until its back to cow country I go, and I can't have that. I need a job. (Have you heard that one before?) And I want to read, and to write. I bought a chair, a good one. I'm excited about things again. It's always nice. Seeing Marissa is also nice lately. It's lived in, it's comfortable, and anyway we always get along. Who knows what's next?
I'd like to get in shape again, but I can't afford a gym, the one at school is too crowded and too far, and I swore a dark unholy oath I would never work at the Y again....