confusions
okay...here's the dealio. i think i could be content being at luther for 4 years to becoming a museum curator and then moving to a big city and working myself up in power at an amazing museum. content....but happy? so my class on apartheid in south africa hit me really hard. the things that people are capable of doing to each other are awful and the white supremacy stuff just makes me so mad. im done with that class though so im moving on right? basically no. my freshman course is going to be focusing on slavery and racism this semester. i realize that these topics hit everybody but i think they affect me more. maybe its because i have lots of black friends and dont see them any differently than anyone else. racism makes me so mad and i realize that i cant change the world, but...i dont know. maybe God is trying to tell me something through giving me these courses. maybe hes trying to open my eyes to something bigger that he wants from me.
i never actually thought i would stick with being a museum curator, but lately i've really taken to the idea. i like the thought of learning tons of history and getting to exam up close artifacts from the past...how cool would that be?!
now im doubting it again and i have no idea what to do with my life. i'm applying to UNO and after i get accepted then i'll decide what to do. i thought maybe my time in new orleans is done, but after talking to ray i think maybe its not. i shouldnt let him put thoughts in my head, but what would it hurt to apply.
God show me your way and your will. i dont know what im doing, but i have a feeling that you have bigger plans for me than to work in a museum my entire life.
i never actually thought i would stick with being a museum curator, but lately i've really taken to the idea. i like the thought of learning tons of history and getting to exam up close artifacts from the past...how cool would that be?!
now im doubting it again and i have no idea what to do with my life. i'm applying to UNO and after i get accepted then i'll decide what to do. i thought maybe my time in new orleans is done, but after talking to ray i think maybe its not. i shouldnt let him put thoughts in my head, but what would it hurt to apply.
God show me your way and your will. i dont know what im doing, but i have a feeling that you have bigger plans for me than to work in a museum my entire life.