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i texted cindy tonight to see if she can get me a copy of the iowa falls paper, so that i can cut out damon's obituary. i've been doing a lot at home to keep me busy and try to keep my mind off of it, but this is the first friend i have had that died so i don't know how to react. when i had to open at work an hour after i found out, i couldn't function. i couldn't count the drawer or flick the light switch. and i've had a couple of momentary black outs yesterday and today. my eyes just shut and i forget what i just did or how i got to where i was. i sent out like four or five texts last night that i didn't remember typing. and i haven't really ate much since yesterday morning. my mom said that its because i'm dehydrated. which i know is probably right because i'm also not eating right. but i have an appt on monday to figure out this stuff and to get on medication. oh, and i don't believe my parents are going to get a divorce anymore. i can't tell for sure, but it looks like lately they're really trying to make things better. we'll see, i guess.