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I'm in a very okward and uncomfortable situation and I want to go home.
So tommorrow is thanksgiving and im staying at my dads house well my house and will is coming, the holidays just arent the same anymore and I just don't look forward to them anymore maybe it's because i'm getting older or because I don't feel like I have a family anymore things just arent the same with mw and my mom and I dont think that there ever going to be and i can't help but feel like it's my fault and no matter how many times people tell me that it's not my fault it still doesn't make me feel better. For the first time in my life im not looking forward to Christmas I'm actually dreding it, it's just not going to be the same this year.
So tommorrow is thanksgiving and im staying at my dads house well my house and will is coming, the holidays just arent the same anymore and I just don't look forward to them anymore maybe it's because i'm getting older or because I don't feel like I have a family anymore things just arent the same with mw and my mom and I dont think that there ever going to be and i can't help but feel like it's my fault and no matter how many times people tell me that it's not my fault it still doesn't make me feel better. For the first time in my life im not looking forward to Christmas I'm actually dreding it, it's just not going to be the same this year.