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So the last two days I feel have been shit for me. I have so much pent up anger and frustrations that I want to scream. Hmmm where to start.
Monday: Had to meet with Mally's teacher, school psychologist, and principal to discuss his behavior, and add some new consequences to it. Got pissed at the fact that the bitch psychologist used words like "weapons" and "hostage" when talking about my sons actions. THE KID IS 4 FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!! Not to mention the damn college was updating their software systems so I could not get ANY of my supplies for my summer course. Oh and to top that off, I also got fucked over by my caseworker at the welfare office, and there is really nothing i can do about it.
Tuesday: Found out that my aunt had been hallucinating a bit this morning about my uncle who passed about 6 years ago, as well as a bright light and that her vision had returned after being blind for a couple of years. Not good! She has been in poor health since last year, so I feel she could go at any time. It kills me cause if I only had one more chance to talk to her, I would ask her to tell me the story about her playing baseball as a kid. That is the funniest story I have ever heard in my life. The thing is, is that I don't want to talk to her for fear that i will break down and cry. This aunt has been like a second mom to me in some ways. She was the one person i used to talk to whenever i had problems in life. She is the one who convinced me to get into counseling after my ex left me. She was also there for me in a way after Darius and i went through our really rough time. I don't want to see her go, but I know that she would be better off in a lot of ways. She would have her health and her sight back, and be with my grandparents and my uncle. I know there would be no more diabetes for her. She wouldn't be suffering anymore.
I know these last few days have been hell on me. I am realizing a lot of things and i have so much pent up in my head it is driving me crazy. :(
Monday: Had to meet with Mally's teacher, school psychologist, and principal to discuss his behavior, and add some new consequences to it. Got pissed at the fact that the bitch psychologist used words like "weapons" and "hostage" when talking about my sons actions. THE KID IS 4 FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!! Not to mention the damn college was updating their software systems so I could not get ANY of my supplies for my summer course. Oh and to top that off, I also got fucked over by my caseworker at the welfare office, and there is really nothing i can do about it.
Tuesday: Found out that my aunt had been hallucinating a bit this morning about my uncle who passed about 6 years ago, as well as a bright light and that her vision had returned after being blind for a couple of years. Not good! She has been in poor health since last year, so I feel she could go at any time. It kills me cause if I only had one more chance to talk to her, I would ask her to tell me the story about her playing baseball as a kid. That is the funniest story I have ever heard in my life. The thing is, is that I don't want to talk to her for fear that i will break down and cry. This aunt has been like a second mom to me in some ways. She was the one person i used to talk to whenever i had problems in life. She is the one who convinced me to get into counseling after my ex left me. She was also there for me in a way after Darius and i went through our really rough time. I don't want to see her go, but I know that she would be better off in a lot of ways. She would have her health and her sight back, and be with my grandparents and my uncle. I know there would be no more diabetes for her. She wouldn't be suffering anymore.
I know these last few days have been hell on me. I am realizing a lot of things and i have so much pent up in my head it is driving me crazy. :(