How I feel
I've been feeling really depressed as of late. I'm trying to be supportive of Darius since he's started college. I'm happy for him, don't get me wrong, but I can't help but feel like I'm not good enough for him, and feeling left out. I feel like I'm not smart enough for him, and it doesn't help when he says things to make me that way, either.
He and I argued last week, really bad, and he told me I'm not motivated to do anything with my life, and that I never have any goals. I feel like I have achieved the goals I had set for myself, such as having a family of my own, and to be able to raise my kids. Yeah, I want to have more kids, and to raise them, and then when they go to school, my goal is to work part time while they are in school. I wanted to go to college after high school, but never have, due to the fact that I can't decide on a career. Plus, I don't want to start school, only to find that I don't like it, or that I'm bored with it. Every job I've ever had, I have eventually gotten bored with.
I don't really have much else to say on here, so I guess I'll go for now.
He and I argued last week, really bad, and he told me I'm not motivated to do anything with my life, and that I never have any goals. I feel like I have achieved the goals I had set for myself, such as having a family of my own, and to be able to raise my kids. Yeah, I want to have more kids, and to raise them, and then when they go to school, my goal is to work part time while they are in school. I wanted to go to college after high school, but never have, due to the fact that I can't decide on a career. Plus, I don't want to start school, only to find that I don't like it, or that I'm bored with it. Every job I've ever had, I have eventually gotten bored with.
I don't really have much else to say on here, so I guess I'll go for now.