Life sucks so bad sometimes!

[freakygurl_1]

I wish I could just disappear sometimes. Life is so hard, and sometimes I feel like I can't deal with the things that happen in my life. Why is it that things never go the way I want them to? Why is it a crime for me to be happy? Why do I think all the stupid thoughts that I have in my mind? I don't get it. Why do relationships have to be so hard? I love my fiance, and my son, but I feel like my relationship is so one sided a lot of times, and I feel like my fiance doesn't understand where I come from a lot of times. I want to be with him, and I love him so much, but a lot of times, I feel like he wants other things in life. I feel like he wishes he wasn't here with me, and that he didn't have the responsibilities he has. I feel like he's not happy, and that that's the reason he is constantly doing other things rather than trying to make time for me. I try to talk to him to work our problems out, but when someone can't answer the questions you ask, and you feel ignored, what are you supposed to think, and how are you supposed to feel?

I love him so much, and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him, I just wish relationships weren't so hard. I'm also thinking of deleting my account on here because I hardly ever get on here anymore, but I'm still thinking it over.