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Dear everyone that has a Live journal. Well I actually mean those of my friends. But unfortunately I don't really have that many good friends. I get glared at and I get everyone's pain just because I'm Fucking happy. I'm sorry that not everyone has gotten to be as happy as Fucking Amanda. I know... yea I actually know that people have been talking behind my back. It's not a big fucking deal. I know that you hate me. For more then one reason is what I've been hearing. I don't care if you hate me anymore. I've tried to forget it. I seriously have. I try to ignore how you blow me off. I don't hate you. I really don't but I am NOT going to tell you my life story not anymore. I am happy. For once I am fucking HAPPY. I know why you hate me. But I don't care. I know I'm being Sinical and all but I am Fucking Tired of being the friend if you need me. Just tell me to my face why you don't like me. I know that I am not always there. Yes I can be moody. So what? I am just a little bit more moody then I have been. If anyone would have cared to ask I've had a rough time, but no, no one cared to ask why I've barely talked to anyone. You can ALL go away. I don't need friends anymore. I don't need anyone to help me. I've been in this situation before. I don't need your sympathy either. And if the only reason you talk to me tomorri is because you read this then I know what kind of friend you are. Only when AMANDA is in pain does anyone give a fuck. I know that I haven't been in touch with many people. I guess I just want to be alone. In my misery. Don't talk to me anymore especially if you just like to see me in pain.
LYRA