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Errg... this sucks. I'm really confused, I don't know what to do. I'm losing a friend. I know it. Sure, I was a dick, but she siad some pretty f'd up things to. Then when I realize just how badly I hurt her... about things not even relating to her. I try to apologize, and she won't belive me that I'm sorry. I care about her alot, but she is one of the most stubborn people I know. And trying to get her to think something her mind doesn't already think is impossible. And right now her mind seems like it's set on me being gone... for good. She just doesn't realize how bad it hurt me. Sure, I siad I was ok. But come on, havn't you ever lied to someone to make them feel better? She kept telling "oh it happens" but when you're happy, you don't realize how much someone else's situation sucks.
I'm afriad to talk to her. And right now I don't think she even wants to talk to me. This whole thing is driving me crazy. I'm not that upset that she's dating someone else, but more that she went back on her word (promise or not). Then when I get mad, just tells me "oh you're just jealous that I'm dating someone and it's not you". That stuff hurt. And I know I hurt her to. And I regret it so much. But she thinks that because I siad it I meant it. I don't know what to do about this whole thing.
I'm afriad to talk to her. And right now I don't think she even wants to talk to me. This whole thing is driving me crazy. I'm not that upset that she's dating someone else, but more that she went back on her word (promise or not). Then when I get mad, just tells me "oh you're just jealous that I'm dating someone and it's not you". That stuff hurt. And I know I hurt her to. And I regret it so much. But she thinks that because I siad it I meant it. I don't know what to do about this whole thing.