Research Paper #126 -- Filtered from Ahiru and Cirucci//unhackable
Ahiru's back...she doesn't remember anything about her previous stay, but...she seems well and happy, so besides all of us getting out of here I couldn't ask for a better outcome.
She keeps asking me questions, though...I suppose she figured that if she couldn't get Fakir to answer them she'd come to me instead. But I know better. I have no wish to have Fakir on my bad side anymore than he normally is, so I'm keeping my mouth shut. So don't give me a lecture, Fakir, I already know you don't want her to know anything.
How can he do that? He had someone that loved him and now he's hiding that? What if she still felt that way? If I had someone, I'd--
I'm sure Fakir's already given you all more than enough warnings, but please do heed them. Ahiru's...a kind person. Annoying and loud, sometimes, but kind. I'd like to see her stay happy.
[Private//unhackable]
...She said she saw my mother. In my house, with her garish knick-knacks all over the place...planting a garden and singing to herself. ...And organizing my writing supplies. She sounded lonely.
Part of me...I honestly don't feel that much attachment to home. More than I thought I did before I came here, but still...Mother's really the only thing I have to go back to anymore. Particularly if what Ishida said about several Wars in the near future is true...I still haven't researched that... I have friends here. I...in an odd way, I belong here.
But...I'd be fooling myself to think that I can stay here forever. Ahiru's quick trip home and back has taught me that. Eventually I'll leave, and I might not ever remember the people I've met here, the experiences I've had. I've...changed. Would I be the same person I used to be if I forget everything? I don't want to be him again.
...If I had a choice, I'd...I think I'd stay here. I'd stay here...after I brought my mother here. I'd...learn to grow used to life here. Yes, I'd have to put up with the curses and the deities' whims, but...
...No, what am I saying? This is nonsense. I belong back in Kinkan. There are wonderful people here, and I hope I always remember them, but...I'm not supposed to stay here indefinitely.
I'll grow to accept that.
((OOC: Strikes are difficult to hack.))
She keeps asking me questions, though...I suppose she figured that if she couldn't get Fakir to answer them she'd come to me instead. But I know better. I have no wish to have Fakir on my bad side anymore than he normally is, so I'm keeping my mouth shut. So don't give me a lecture, Fakir, I already know you don't want her to know anything.
How can he do that? He had someone that loved him and now he's hiding that? What if she still felt that way? If I had someone, I'd--
I'm sure Fakir's already given you all more than enough warnings, but please do heed them. Ahiru's...a kind person. Annoying and loud, sometimes, but kind. I'd like to see her stay happy.
[Private//unhackable]
...She said she saw my mother. In my house, with her garish knick-knacks all over the place...planting a garden and singing to herself. ...And organizing my writing supplies. She sounded lonely.
Part of me...I honestly don't feel that much attachment to home. More than I thought I did before I came here, but still...Mother's really the only thing I have to go back to anymore. Particularly if what Ishida said about several Wars in the near future is true...I still haven't researched that... I have friends here. I...in an odd way, I belong here.
But...I'd be fooling myself to think that I can stay here forever. Ahiru's quick trip home and back has taught me that. Eventually I'll leave, and I might not ever remember the people I've met here, the experiences I've had. I've...changed. Would I be the same person I used to be if I forget everything? I don't want to be him again.
...If I had a choice, I'd...I think I'd stay here. I'd stay here...after I brought my mother here. I'd...learn to grow used to life here. Yes, I'd have to put up with the curses and the deities' whims, but...
...No, what am I saying? This is nonsense. I belong back in Kinkan. There are wonderful people here, and I hope I always remember them, but...I'm not supposed to stay here indefinitely.
I'll grow to accept that.
((OOC: Strikes are difficult to hack.))