Research Paper #53
What I learned yesterday:
-sarcasm (noun): 1 : a sharp and often satirical or ironic utterance designed to cut or give pain
2 a : a mode of satirical wit depending for its effect on bitter, caustic, and often ironic language that is usually directed against an individual
-Perverted (adjective): corrupt, marked by perversion ...I still don't understand it.
-I gave Rue a necklace.
-I may have had a 'thing' for Rue.
-That means I liked her, but 'love' might be too strong of a word (according to Miss Valentine)
-A kiss can mean several things. It can have the feelings of lust or love attatched to it, or no emotions at all.
-Lust is related to sex. It's physical. Love isn't, but sometimes relates to sex as well...?
-Sex isn't just for procreation. It feels good. But it also causes a connection, and if you don't want that connection, it can cause guilt.
-Some people have sex just because it feels good. However, it appears I was not one of those people.
-I shouldn't have sex until I have the rest of my heart back, as I still can't understand all of this. But as far as I can ascertain with my heart I wouldn't.
-I kissed Mayura. The emotion I felt was lust. That's why I feel guilty when I see her...?
-It was a curse day. I wouldn't normally kiss her, although I am capable of feeling lust when I have my heart. For some reason, I didn't want that sort of connection with her.
-Love; noun; a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. Also, ‘a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.’
-Fakir and Ahiru share the first kind of love.
-Fakir and Rue share the second.
-Sometimes, a love will only go one way. This type of love is a painful emotion like lonliness and guilt.
-I associate this sort of love with stairs. I don't know why.
-You can also have a love of doing something. Watanuki loves to cook. I love to learn, and read, and play the piano...and...write?
-This is currently the only love I can understand.
I still want to learn:
-How I feel about Fakir, Ahiru, Rue etc (Rue...I have a 'thing' for? And Fakir is my friend?)
-How to sew
-More archery
-More swordsfighting
I need to learn:
-The rest of the score for The Tempest.
((OOC: Most of this is refering to this log.
...Yes, I'm very amused. No, Autor will not be when he gets his heart back.))