Been a long while...but shit needs to be said...
I can't believe how long it's been since I really posted in my journal. I just really never have the time any more. Working takes up a huge chunk of my life right now, and I do some stuff with friends on occasion, so thats the other part ( well besides like showering, eating, sleeping...things like that...). I am going to try and write in here regularly, I remember now how therapudic it can be to just get everything out and not give a fuck who reads it and who has something to say about it. Sometimes...It's just nice to rile things up...I haven't riled anything up in a good long time...
And even though I know most of the people these rant-ish words pertain to will not ever encounter them, it just makes me feel better to get it off my chest.
First of all...to the people who use me...my neighbors, my so called fucking friends...FUCK YOU ALL... I am so fucking sick and tired of people using me for money, for rides, cigarettes, for fucking anything! Just because you are too fucking lazy to get a god damn license does not mean that I am going to volunteer myself to be your personal fucking chauffer. If we both want to go somewhere, fine...But don't fucking call me every time YOU want to go somewhere just so I can give you a ride...and then you don't even have the curtesy to chip in some gas money?! Gas is 3 dollars a fucking gallon, and last time I checked, there was not a delta sonic in my driveway that is just for my own free personal use.
Second of all...to the two people who I thought were friends...and then they continually talk shit about me behind my back, and occasionally right to my face... GO TO FUCKING HELL... I have never, in my 21 years of life met two people as vindictive, cruel, and cowardly as the two of you. You think I don't know what you say about me, the names you call me, the rotten things you accuse me of?! What do you think I am, fucking RETARDED?! You're all nice nice to me when you want to chill at my house and come over to drink, but then it's right back to " I'm a bitch..." oh wait...it was better than that...I'm a two faced, hypocritical, drama queen. Yeah...that makes sense! LOOK IN THE FUCKING MIRROR ON THAT ONE! You're the ones who try to give me relationship advice, yet at the same time you both try to tear my fucking marriage apart! I'm sorry guys, but unlike the two of you, people grow up, they move on, to bigger and BETTER things! I think that the only reason that you are like this is because you are jealous. You two hate eachother, all you ever do is bitch about the other, and you're jealous that your friend has found someone better than what either of you have in eachother. We're making something of our lives, and you're stuck in the shit you made for yourself, and that pisses you off...And you know what? I don't fucking care any more! I don't ever, ever want anything to do with the two of you ever again as long as I fucking live! I'm done with dealing with people like you, done with kissing your asses so that you won't make up stories to tell my husband about me...Guess what, he'll fucking believe me over you! I'm his WIFE, and you're just an asshole who is unhappy with his lame fucking job and living at his mommy's, and you're just a lazy fucking bitch who has nothing better to do with her time than to make other people fucking miserable and suck what you can out of them before they realize your fucking game. To the two of you - I am completely done. Consider the both of you completely cut out of my life. I want nothing to do with you ever again, don't call me, don't e-mail me, don't contact me. My life will be better off without you in it...
God! That makes me feel so much better...now if only I had to balls to say that to the people face to face...I'd love that.
So...on to an actual update!
Not much has been going on. I'm still in Rochester, still working at Bausch and Lomb, still waiting for my wonderful husband to come home from Korea to see me!!!! It's almost time for R&R and I can't wait! I'm gonna have my baby boy back! Even if it is only for a little while, I'll love every single minute of it.
I'm looking into buying him a car right now. He wants a fox body mustang with a V8...I'm trying to save up as much as I can so that I can get him what he wants. It's the only thing he's asked for since he got over there, was to have a car for when he came home. So I'm gonna do my damndest to get it for him...any ideas?! LoL
Other than that, nothing is really new!
I'll update again soon!
And even though I know most of the people these rant-ish words pertain to will not ever encounter them, it just makes me feel better to get it off my chest.
First of all...to the people who use me...my neighbors, my so called fucking friends...FUCK YOU ALL... I am so fucking sick and tired of people using me for money, for rides, cigarettes, for fucking anything! Just because you are too fucking lazy to get a god damn license does not mean that I am going to volunteer myself to be your personal fucking chauffer. If we both want to go somewhere, fine...But don't fucking call me every time YOU want to go somewhere just so I can give you a ride...and then you don't even have the curtesy to chip in some gas money?! Gas is 3 dollars a fucking gallon, and last time I checked, there was not a delta sonic in my driveway that is just for my own free personal use.
Second of all...to the two people who I thought were friends...and then they continually talk shit about me behind my back, and occasionally right to my face... GO TO FUCKING HELL... I have never, in my 21 years of life met two people as vindictive, cruel, and cowardly as the two of you. You think I don't know what you say about me, the names you call me, the rotten things you accuse me of?! What do you think I am, fucking RETARDED?! You're all nice nice to me when you want to chill at my house and come over to drink, but then it's right back to " I'm a bitch..." oh wait...it was better than that...I'm a two faced, hypocritical, drama queen. Yeah...that makes sense! LOOK IN THE FUCKING MIRROR ON THAT ONE! You're the ones who try to give me relationship advice, yet at the same time you both try to tear my fucking marriage apart! I'm sorry guys, but unlike the two of you, people grow up, they move on, to bigger and BETTER things! I think that the only reason that you are like this is because you are jealous. You two hate eachother, all you ever do is bitch about the other, and you're jealous that your friend has found someone better than what either of you have in eachother. We're making something of our lives, and you're stuck in the shit you made for yourself, and that pisses you off...And you know what? I don't fucking care any more! I don't ever, ever want anything to do with the two of you ever again as long as I fucking live! I'm done with dealing with people like you, done with kissing your asses so that you won't make up stories to tell my husband about me...Guess what, he'll fucking believe me over you! I'm his WIFE, and you're just an asshole who is unhappy with his lame fucking job and living at his mommy's, and you're just a lazy fucking bitch who has nothing better to do with her time than to make other people fucking miserable and suck what you can out of them before they realize your fucking game. To the two of you - I am completely done. Consider the both of you completely cut out of my life. I want nothing to do with you ever again, don't call me, don't e-mail me, don't contact me. My life will be better off without you in it...
God! That makes me feel so much better...now if only I had to balls to say that to the people face to face...I'd love that.
So...on to an actual update!
Not much has been going on. I'm still in Rochester, still working at Bausch and Lomb, still waiting for my wonderful husband to come home from Korea to see me!!!! It's almost time for R&R and I can't wait! I'm gonna have my baby boy back! Even if it is only for a little while, I'll love every single minute of it.
I'm looking into buying him a car right now. He wants a fox body mustang with a V8...I'm trying to save up as much as I can so that I can get him what he wants. It's the only thing he's asked for since he got over there, was to have a car for when he came home. So I'm gonna do my damndest to get it for him...any ideas?! LoL
Other than that, nothing is really new!
I'll update again soon!