today and stuff
Hey, todauy's been kinda weird and fun and crazy and just a whole bunch of stuff, so I'm just gonna say what I want and if it doesn't make sense, whatever, welcome to my life! I got up and went to my Pre-Calc final and damn. I really think I failed this part of it because I took almost the full 2 hours and also my calculator died, so I had to borrow one and it was hard without a calculator while they were trying to find me one. Anyway, after that I got picked up by Gregg's mom and we talked a bit while she did some errands. Then I finally got to see Gregg. It's our 5 month anniversary today. Let's just say, it had its ups and downs. For the beginning of my time there I was kinda depressed because I found out somethin kinda bad last night. I can't see Gregg every day or even every other day. (And yes, I know that some people who are reading this are laughing at me right now) I know that he and I spend a lot more time together than other couples, but we are trying to make up for the time we will lose when I go to college in August. I guess Gregg's mom is getting really pissed at the fact that I'm there all the time, so she said I can't be there all the time anymore. The other reason that sux majorly is the fact that I have NADA to do, so I'm stuck in a shit hole with a family who doesn't give a damn about me. The only time they care is when I fuck up. I need a FUCKING CAR and a LICENSE and I need them NOW!!!!! Cuz then I could leave whenever I want and come home whenever I want. Right now, I just want to go to bed and wake up in Gregg's arms, but I know that can't happen cuz my parents are assholes!!!!! I want out of this life; I get yelled at for everything and my achievements go unnoticed, or they barely get noticed. For example, at my graduation my mom said she was proud, but then the next day there she goes yelling at me for random bullshit and she tells me that just because I graduated it doesn't mean anything. I'm still stuck suffering. I can't go anywhere or do anything without relying on other people for rides, my family or not. I can't live like this. I need a license soon, then a car. I can't keep doing this. It's killing me from the inside out. Not like anyone cares though because no one reads this shit anyway, so who the helll cares? whatever. Peace.