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Man I've hardly had any time to write anything lately. What with being at work most of the time, or ill, or at funerals.......... And moving. Had to put all of our stuff into storage for 3 weeks on Wednesday and yesterday (we only found out we'd have to do it on Tuesday afternoon!!) which meant emergency packing and cleaning of house. I had work from 7.30 to 3.30 Wednesday, then 10.30 til 6.30 yesterday. Which meant I got into a fight with Ali yesterday coz she was pissed she had to do so much. I felt bad, but it was hardly my fault - I had work, I helped as much as I could, but i was shattered. Still am. Think I might go to bed soon - how sad. But I have work at 9 tomorrow. And I have to get the bus at like 7.56 or something gay. I am now officially living in Julie's spare room in Herne Bay, which is like a half hr bus ride from Canterbury. Until 7th July (in theory). it really is so so good of her to help me like this, she is a total lifesaver. But I feel bad for putting her to all this trouble and disrupting her life, she hasnt lived here that long herself. I know shes on holiday at the moment (til 26th), but still. I feel like I've disrupted David's (her brother) life as well, since he lives here. At least I have Whiskey (her lovely little cat) to keep me company and to look after :) I love cats. Makes me miss my little baby even more though :( Got Ali and hopefully Liv coming over tomorrow night for wine and dvds, to keep me company, which will be good
I definitely need a new job. I'm starting to hate, well, not quite hate work, but its starting to piss me off a bit. I went to Adecco earlier about jobs when I finished work at 3.30, spoke to a very nice woman (also called Carli - ha!!) who said to ring up and make an appointment Monday (coz you need an appointment apparently) and come in and see her because shes got a few jobs she thinks I might be suited for. Banking work I think she said. Its not something I'd considered, I suppose it could be ok, anyway, nothings forever I guess. I just need a job!!
And I don't know whats going on with me and Alex. I catch him looking at me at work and stuff, but then when I text him, like 2nite, to tell him we're saving going out 2moro night til next week to get more people out, I get no reply :s Men!! I dont know. I mean I like him (although Kate is threatening to slap me if anything else happens), but I cant be sure exactly if he likes me, if he wants to sleep with me, or what?! Usually I'd just go ahead and sleep with him (and who knows, I might) but I really am trying to stop doing that kind of stuff, being so easy and just having one night stands, I'm sure its not good for me, like mentally, all I want is a stable relationship. Its the one thing I've never had. I'm just not sure I could have it with Alex....... I thought thats what I was gonna have with Laura - not quite so much!! Thats what she promised anyway........ But whatever, thats not the issue. Ergh just whatever!!
I cut myself on the top of my finger washing up 2nite. Damn Julie's knives are sharp!!
And I had a big dirty burger and chips from the kebab shop near julie's 2nite for dinner. Fuck it, just for 2nite - fuck it!!
I really miss Dan :'(
I definitely need a new job. I'm starting to hate, well, not quite hate work, but its starting to piss me off a bit. I went to Adecco earlier about jobs when I finished work at 3.30, spoke to a very nice woman (also called Carli - ha!!) who said to ring up and make an appointment Monday (coz you need an appointment apparently) and come in and see her because shes got a few jobs she thinks I might be suited for. Banking work I think she said. Its not something I'd considered, I suppose it could be ok, anyway, nothings forever I guess. I just need a job!!
And I don't know whats going on with me and Alex. I catch him looking at me at work and stuff, but then when I text him, like 2nite, to tell him we're saving going out 2moro night til next week to get more people out, I get no reply :s Men!! I dont know. I mean I like him (although Kate is threatening to slap me if anything else happens), but I cant be sure exactly if he likes me, if he wants to sleep with me, or what?! Usually I'd just go ahead and sleep with him (and who knows, I might) but I really am trying to stop doing that kind of stuff, being so easy and just having one night stands, I'm sure its not good for me, like mentally, all I want is a stable relationship. Its the one thing I've never had. I'm just not sure I could have it with Alex....... I thought thats what I was gonna have with Laura - not quite so much!! Thats what she promised anyway........ But whatever, thats not the issue. Ergh just whatever!!
I cut myself on the top of my finger washing up 2nite. Damn Julie's knives are sharp!!
And I had a big dirty burger and chips from the kebab shop near julie's 2nite for dinner. Fuck it, just for 2nite - fuck it!!
I really miss Dan :'(