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Well....Yesterday was way werid. Something that i never expect always happens. I talked to Chris and I had told him i cheated on him, I was honest. He said a relationship is based on trust. So i told him the truth. He was so fucken pissed. He punched another hole in the wall. I felt bad for hurting him. But yet i didnt feel guilty. And the only reason wht i didnt feel guilty was because, i really dont want a relationship. I want to be my own person. I want to do what i want, when ever i want. I don't see chirs all the time, whihc is prolly a good thing. Hes begining to be sweet and caring and loving. But i'm not ready to settle down im fuck 17.... 18 this year but still. I still have a lot of partying left in me as we all know.... I dont want to fuck the same person for the rest of my life. God how depressing. Plus, Theres one guy that i care about, think about more then Chris. He means so much to me, he's taught me a lot about life, we hace so much in common, and he knows me. All the dark deep secrets. All the stupid shit i have done. And we have known each otehr for like 4 or 5 years. I don't want to have Chris on the side. I'm mean and a bitch, but i know if i keep going with our relationship, it's just going to hurt him even worse in the long run. I know i have already caused him enough pain and agony, and we have gone through alot. I'm just me.... And the person that i like, likes me for me, He knows the real me....
Me and Chris became alot closer since yesterday. But i think i should end our relationship, I just want to be friends. And if we can't be friends then i guess i lost a great person. But you have to give up somethings for something you want, and i'm willing to sacrifice that.
I'm just confussed, everything is coming at me once, and i don't want to make another poor disection. I'm thinking out everything before i act. So wish me luck... Cuz im gonna hella need it.
Congratz Eric and Angela...... What a cute couple..... :-P
Taran---- IS everything iight with you? Are you feeling better? Sorry i couldnt get you the balloon in time
Me and Chris became alot closer since yesterday. But i think i should end our relationship, I just want to be friends. And if we can't be friends then i guess i lost a great person. But you have to give up somethings for something you want, and i'm willing to sacrifice that.
I'm just confussed, everything is coming at me once, and i don't want to make another poor disection. I'm thinking out everything before i act. So wish me luck... Cuz im gonna hella need it.
Congratz Eric and Angela...... What a cute couple..... :-P
Taran---- IS everything iight with you? Are you feeling better? Sorry i couldnt get you the balloon in time