MEN!
I'm here writing today because I am baffled and confused. Eh what's new right? I've been dating this wonderful guy (so I thought) for 9 months now. It's the longest relationship since my son's father. Well lately things just haven't been seeming right. When something feels wrong Angi gets the gut feeling. So since i've been through a lot of relationships I tend to pick up on stuff. Well a week or so ago I flat out asked my boyfriend if he's cheating on me. He was stunned and said "NO why would I". He gets up and goes in my rooms for like 5 mins then comes out and hands me his phone "Here check". I told him no I believe you it's whatever.( I show him all my text and everything to get him involved and plus I have nothing to hide) I told him that things just been seeming weird and I'm just adding up everything and that is one things that came up. Than yesterday at like 4am my gut feeling was telling me check his phone he told you before to do it but you turned it down. I'll tell you now I am not the type of person that goes through someone's personal stuff but if I didn't my anxiety would of killed me and I wouldn't of found the shit I found. I thought to myself when he told me to look at his phone it took him a bit to grab it which is enough time to delete what ever isn't deemed appropriate. I know men don't delete stuff off of facebook. I checked his pictures on his phone and seen nudes of some girl. I haven't seen them on his phone before when he was showing me pictures on his phone. It said saved pic messages. Then I went on his facebook and looked at his messages. Every messages is to a girl (which I don't mind it's whatever) But there was one that caught my eye. I clicked on it and the first thing I saw was him " I sent you my pic I want yours now hehe" then things got blurry but she said " my hands are getting numb" then blame naked pic. His response was " Mmmmm I so want to play with you right now" WTF *Heart jumps out of chest* For one this chick was ugly and was wayyy bigger than I was. If your going to sext/exchange pics with another chick make it a step up from me. So, I am livid now because this was recently not before we met or dates but a couple weeks ago. I bought this man a ring for christmas 3 days after this man didn't say no babe you don't have to get me one this man was excited. (No dignity) I wanted to drag this man out of my bed and tell him to get the fuck out but I did the adult thing and waited for him to get up. When he woke up I sat him done and told him EVERYTHING! I said I looked at your phone and found nude pics of girls and a nice convo with him exchanging nude pics with another girl. He was baffled. "What are you talking about, what pics, what girl, whats her name (my response I don't know I just seen the convo) I don't know what you are talking about" I can tell he was shocked because he must of never been confronted like this before. I'm the type of person that if something is wrong I tell you.In my eyes if you exchange nude pics its considered cheating because you are fulfilling a sexual satisfaction from someone else. He didn't know what to say. I asked him why he did it all he said was because he wanted to see it but he was the one that sent her a picture first. I asked is there something wrong with me because clearly he down graded. I also found out this chick is supposedly engaged too. Like I still want to know why he had the need to do that when he has me to satisfy his needs at any time. I told him I don't give second chances and he's a lucky fucker because I'm giving him one. I will never be able to trust him for a long time. He seems like the type of person that will do it again and next time I won't be so nice. Why do I find men that feel the need to do this. I'm pretty awesome and I've been extremely awesome to him. My anxiety is still telling me I need to find out more. But we'll see what happens.