Hope and Failure
Well Im in Alabama now with Curtis again we are doing alot better now and plus IM PREGNANT! Yeah never would thought i would be a mother just yet but i am....Still going to wait to get married going to do it next year....Its nice not to be in NY cause so much bullshit and drama is happening right now but somehow i got in the middle of it.....Im stressed out enough with be pregnant and curtis worring about money and all other stuff and my mom just had to start shit say she wants to kill her self cause shes sick of shit so i hung up on her...Then later she ims me with im sorry about earlier im just sick of everything i replyed with well if you sick of everything then fucking do something about it dont complain to me you have to make the step and change not me cause i already did....I fucking got out....Shes like its hard for me and blah blah....Im like its hard for everyone but you just cant mope around and exspect things to change and do things on thier own it doesnt happen that way....Plus she had a job handed to her that was 4hr a day basically doing nothing and she turns it down but yet she complians she needs a job....She only turned it down cause her backs getting worse and what not....Im like well doing something about it call up Medicade and start bitching that you need it badly so you can go to the drs and get help and also she might have breast cancer i know its a scarey thing but if you want to find out if it is you have to call and make an appointment and so on but does she do that noooo she just rather sit on the computer trying to look for a man and play games and rot and die there gawddd.....But anyways something happened with my bro earlier and he left and whatever i guess he got hit in the eye with a coin and flipped out and other shit happened then my mom was iming me about it and then she stop talking so i thought i would start on the thing curtis wanted me to do (make a sticker to put on kitchen hoods for the health department) and i didnt see her im me then when i was done i closed out Microsoft word and then i seen the im shes like fine then dont talk to me well have a nice life i imed her telling her what i was doing i guess she didnt get it so i got offline then 10 mins later she text me saying my brothers back home and i said okie good and then i asked if she got my Ims she said no so i told her i was doing that stuff for curtis and after i was done i seen the Im and she comes up with Oh when i was done i said have a nice life and that was that and its pissing me off just cause i didnt im her quick enough shes stop talking to me stupid ass child shit im done with it if she wants to be that way she doesnt have to see her grandchild and dont have to know anything about it im done with this stupid ass shit i moved on and she needs to....Cant be a lazy ass bum sitting on the computer looking for a "man" all your life its worked for almost 3 yrs now its time for a change and being homless for almost 3 yrs isnt cool either some dumb ass shit........blah well atleast i have someshit off my shoulder kinda
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