Happy New Year!
I hope you all had a nice New Year's eve. I was supposed to update my journal yesterday, but I was not able to get online. The phone company cut off my cable connection for some reason, and I have to use dial-up until things get fixed. By the way, cable guys came home for the third time in the last few days, and this time they caught me off-guard as I had no idea they would come again to check out the modem. And only after they started working on the modem in my room, did I notice that I had left my bra hanging on the closet. Eep... I think one of them saw it, but ignored. :P. . Oh well ... at least it was not anything sexy or lacy, ha!
Anyway, the new year is here. A new year with its uncertainties. Ever since the beginning of November, time has been flying. At least it seemed to me that way. When I look back, I realize how hard the last 4 years have been for me ever since the very first hours of 2000. Sickness, loss of loved ones, problems at work, starting to work from home and freelancing, moving to a new place, family problems, parental divorce, frustrations with boyfriends and their families, heart-aches, lots of crying, health problems, failed attempts at drastic career changes etc etc ... So much to tell, but an outline will have to do. I have been through so much, especially regarding my health and personal life. I hope that the new year will be much more favorable in these regards. Because I really need a break. Even now, I am very sick as I have come down with a cold/flu. I should be lying in bed and resting, but here I am. I will probably see a doctor tomorrow. I had not had a cold/flu since 2000, and it is not fun to be this sick at the beginning of a new year. At least, I was not this bad last night.
Where was I? Oh yes, I have been through so much. However, all this shit I have been through has made me a much more experienced person I believe. Made me wiser. At least, I hope so. I have made mistakes, but I hope I won't repeat them again and will be much more careful and cautious from now on. I had better be if I want to be happy. Maybe I also need to change a bit, and try to curb or change those parts of me that have not brought me much happiness but trouble. I believe I can do this if I try. I have changed a lot in the last few years and I know I am capable of transforming myself again and again and being reborn. I have this power and ability in me. I just have to tap into those resources and rise as a wiser and stronger individual who will not be fooled again. I have to do this for my own happiness. I cannot let people hurt me anymore. I cannot keep making wrong decisions anymore. I have to be very careful and smart. And as a close friend wished me a while ago, I also wish 2004 will be my year. I have to make it happen in every way that I can. I cannot wait anymore. I have had my share of unhappiness, and from now on, I hope that the only tears I shed will be happy tears. Because I believe that's what I deserve no matter what some stupid and unappreciative people may think.
And as I end my first entry of 2004, I would like to thank you all for your support and friendship during my hard times, and wish all of you a wonderful new year. May all your wishes come true! Remember, never stop dreaming and always believe in miracles! ;)
Love you all,
Hale
Anyway, the new year is here. A new year with its uncertainties. Ever since the beginning of November, time has been flying. At least it seemed to me that way. When I look back, I realize how hard the last 4 years have been for me ever since the very first hours of 2000. Sickness, loss of loved ones, problems at work, starting to work from home and freelancing, moving to a new place, family problems, parental divorce, frustrations with boyfriends and their families, heart-aches, lots of crying, health problems, failed attempts at drastic career changes etc etc ... So much to tell, but an outline will have to do. I have been through so much, especially regarding my health and personal life. I hope that the new year will be much more favorable in these regards. Because I really need a break. Even now, I am very sick as I have come down with a cold/flu. I should be lying in bed and resting, but here I am. I will probably see a doctor tomorrow. I had not had a cold/flu since 2000, and it is not fun to be this sick at the beginning of a new year. At least, I was not this bad last night.
Where was I? Oh yes, I have been through so much. However, all this shit I have been through has made me a much more experienced person I believe. Made me wiser. At least, I hope so. I have made mistakes, but I hope I won't repeat them again and will be much more careful and cautious from now on. I had better be if I want to be happy. Maybe I also need to change a bit, and try to curb or change those parts of me that have not brought me much happiness but trouble. I believe I can do this if I try. I have changed a lot in the last few years and I know I am capable of transforming myself again and again and being reborn. I have this power and ability in me. I just have to tap into those resources and rise as a wiser and stronger individual who will not be fooled again. I have to do this for my own happiness. I cannot let people hurt me anymore. I cannot keep making wrong decisions anymore. I have to be very careful and smart. And as a close friend wished me a while ago, I also wish 2004 will be my year. I have to make it happen in every way that I can. I cannot wait anymore. I have had my share of unhappiness, and from now on, I hope that the only tears I shed will be happy tears. Because I believe that's what I deserve no matter what some stupid and unappreciative people may think.
And as I end my first entry of 2004, I would like to thank you all for your support and friendship during my hard times, and wish all of you a wonderful new year. May all your wishes come true! Remember, never stop dreaming and always believe in miracles! ;)
Love you all,
Hale