The actions misleading...The words have no meaning....
All these memories of us. Always together. Fucking around and Fucking shit up! I trust you with my life and I'd do anything for you. One of the few guys in my life that has never fucked me over. You know me so well, I can't hide from you. Except the one thing I hid so well, the one thing you never looked for. All these years, I've loved you, I'll always love you. I can't help myself. I know though that you love me too. Im grateful for all the love and respect you have shown me, even when we were little fucking kids. I thank you for all the times you've backed up my ass when people start shit, I thank you for all the times you've listened to me bitch and listened to me cry. That night we were partying and I was crying over shane, I was so hurt. And you just sat there with Calvin and you listened. I could see the hurt in your eyes,you said "all you wanted me to do was to stop crying cause it hurt you to see me like this." I remember all the nights getting so fucked up...all the nights we could have died by our own hands and stupid judgement, you were right there with me, all the way, fucking living it up. I never want us to fade, I'll always need you in my life. For everything. you always talk about moving away, how you can't wait to leave this place. I see it as leaving me, I couldn't take it if you moved away. We already lost Ray-Ray and Randy, and my heart goes out to them everyday. I can't imagine having to worry about you so far away, not being able to hang out whenever we want, all that shit, You fucker. All the things we will miss out on, all the things in my life im going to want to share with you. My children, getting married...My first place. You can't go, I need you by my side. Im trying to think of all the things I can say to make you stay, but Im scared its not going to happen....