Picking everything back up...
I've just read some of my journal entry's i've read over the months. A lot of shit has happened. lol I'm 17 now!! it doesn't feel any different though. Only one more year until i'm 18!! yay!!
JERRAD'S BACK!! lol I'm so glad he's back. I've missed my teddy bear. :-)
but other than that, things have been shitty. like,
Carol got in a really bad car accident. Broke her femur bone (hardest bone to break) And now she won't be able to walk for about 2 months. :-(
To cheer myself up I stayed the night in Bivalve and hung out with all of my old friends. I had so much fun. And then it was time to go to bed and then my best friend since we were fucking babies, tried to fucking rape me in my sleep. wtf?! So i havne't talked to him at all, he's called me, left me notes in class trying to apoligize but it's not going to work with me.
For my birthday my daddy bought me a $130 cd player for my car. It was so nice. It even had a remote to it!! hahaha But not even 4 days after i have the fucking thing, some asshole broke into my car and stole it. They broke my dashboard, stole the mp3 player that bens mom bought me for christmas and stole my radio wave thing to listen to my mp3 player. That fucking killed me. And my fucking insurence won't cover any of it. So now i have to start working more so i can pay it off....
And then I thought things were gonna get better for my birthday. I put sooo much fucking money towards that party. i thought soo many people were gonna show up. A lot of people came and left and only about 9 people actually stayed. And to the people who came, THANK YOU SOO MUCH!! I REALLY APPRICIATE IT!! I LOVE YOU!! lol So Jerrad payed $50 and then i had to use my whole paycheck from Hot Topic and borrowed $150 from my mom just to pay off the fucking party. That made me sooo fucking upset. And Ms. Patti is like my other mom and she was there since my mom couldn't come. And she got everybody fucking drunk. So jeremy was being a fucking asshole. Wolf was in the front of the building puking all over himself. that was so fucked up for her to do that. So Jerrad stayed the night to cheer me up and then i get a phone call from jeremy telling me that he hated me and he hopes that i die. i have no idea why. And then he finally apoligized to me but since then i haven't really talked to him.
So now, i'm getting money together to pay everybody back. I'm doing better in school. I'm working more. Trying to keep my head up.
for some reason after all this shit happened, i didn't really break down. I think since that whole thing with ben broke me so much, it made me into a stronger person. I guess. lol
Well, i'm gonna go back to painting my nails. lol
Much Love,
Sarah
JERRAD'S BACK!! lol I'm so glad he's back. I've missed my teddy bear. :-)
but other than that, things have been shitty. like,
Carol got in a really bad car accident. Broke her femur bone (hardest bone to break) And now she won't be able to walk for about 2 months. :-(
To cheer myself up I stayed the night in Bivalve and hung out with all of my old friends. I had so much fun. And then it was time to go to bed and then my best friend since we were fucking babies, tried to fucking rape me in my sleep. wtf?! So i havne't talked to him at all, he's called me, left me notes in class trying to apoligize but it's not going to work with me.
For my birthday my daddy bought me a $130 cd player for my car. It was so nice. It even had a remote to it!! hahaha But not even 4 days after i have the fucking thing, some asshole broke into my car and stole it. They broke my dashboard, stole the mp3 player that bens mom bought me for christmas and stole my radio wave thing to listen to my mp3 player. That fucking killed me. And my fucking insurence won't cover any of it. So now i have to start working more so i can pay it off....
And then I thought things were gonna get better for my birthday. I put sooo much fucking money towards that party. i thought soo many people were gonna show up. A lot of people came and left and only about 9 people actually stayed. And to the people who came, THANK YOU SOO MUCH!! I REALLY APPRICIATE IT!! I LOVE YOU!! lol So Jerrad payed $50 and then i had to use my whole paycheck from Hot Topic and borrowed $150 from my mom just to pay off the fucking party. That made me sooo fucking upset. And Ms. Patti is like my other mom and she was there since my mom couldn't come. And she got everybody fucking drunk. So jeremy was being a fucking asshole. Wolf was in the front of the building puking all over himself. that was so fucked up for her to do that. So Jerrad stayed the night to cheer me up and then i get a phone call from jeremy telling me that he hated me and he hopes that i die. i have no idea why. And then he finally apoligized to me but since then i haven't really talked to him.
So now, i'm getting money together to pay everybody back. I'm doing better in school. I'm working more. Trying to keep my head up.
for some reason after all this shit happened, i didn't really break down. I think since that whole thing with ben broke me so much, it made me into a stronger person. I guess. lol
Well, i'm gonna go back to painting my nails. lol
Much Love,
Sarah