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Two years down and a good start to the third. I feel fairly satisfied in the decisions I've made, tough choices that keep me humbled. Selfless.
Mostly selfless.
Is anything i do really selfless? Is anything anyone does selfless? Truly and purely about the greater good and wellbeing of those they love... or even like? Or don't like at all? About what's right?
I feel like I've done a lot of sacrificing to prove mostly to myself that control lies within us; we are conscious of each and every movement we make. The control i speak of is in our minds and the way we allow ourselves to think, process, and plan our each and every move.
Sometimes the control that lies within us is just out of our reach, we aren't gods. We can desire to behave and think a certain way, this is the control i'm describing. Sometimes it's unobtainable.
But even if it is unobtainable we should smile at the realization that we are striving to be good.
I do strive.
I am not good by nature.
I mean, maybe i am. i don't know anymore. All i know is i make an effort to do what is right and moral ignoring the itch that lives in me to be oh-so-fucking-evil.
So does that make me good or bad?
You can decide for yourself.
Mostly selfless.
Is anything i do really selfless? Is anything anyone does selfless? Truly and purely about the greater good and wellbeing of those they love... or even like? Or don't like at all? About what's right?
I feel like I've done a lot of sacrificing to prove mostly to myself that control lies within us; we are conscious of each and every movement we make. The control i speak of is in our minds and the way we allow ourselves to think, process, and plan our each and every move.
Sometimes the control that lies within us is just out of our reach, we aren't gods. We can desire to behave and think a certain way, this is the control i'm describing. Sometimes it's unobtainable.
But even if it is unobtainable we should smile at the realization that we are striving to be good.
I do strive.
I am not good by nature.
I mean, maybe i am. i don't know anymore. All i know is i make an effort to do what is right and moral ignoring the itch that lives in me to be oh-so-fucking-evil.
So does that make me good or bad?
You can decide for yourself.