my life sux
I wanna cry...i miss huggin n kissin ruben...ugh its so not fair..WHY!!!!!!:( I mean Mike likes me n thats awesome i am happy n all but i'm upset bcuz i still love ruben!!!! i wrote him a note n ashley gave him it it sed "well you did hurt me...u hurt me REAL bad...i hope me n u can be friends i wish we could be more but i guess dats not happenin.."I wrote Mike a note 2 and he wrote me back i was real happy!!!i still am but I DUNNO..ugh...i saw ruben alot 2day n i wanted to cry Ashley kept askin along w/ alot of otha ppl "whats wrong Julie" and "it'll be aiight" but it wont I LOVE him and he dont feel the same way!!! we were spose to chill this weekend n it was gonna be juss me n him but not ne mo...ugh i knew it was comin but it still hurts!!!and it sux cuz he lives down the street and evertime i see his house i think bout him holdin me n kissin me ugh I MISS IT!!!!!!!he's my baby!!alot of ppl are happy dat we dont go out ne more but I'M NOT!!!!!and i'm still not aloud out during the week..my dad comes home 2day (from hunting) n i dont want him 2...i had 2 get my blood takin yesturday...my life isnt so great right now he picked the wrong time to breakup w/ me!!!!!!!if only he knew how much he means 2 me...but it prob. wouldnt help he's prob. still say were not good 4 each other...well g2g imma go think bout everthing thats goin on right now!!!!!!!! ~*~Julie~*~ :(