This Christmas
Have you ever in your life did something and absolutely regretted it?
And you just feel so despondent about the whole situation and the aftermath of it becomes too much for one to bear?
Try as much as you would like to salvage the situation and make restitution, but you just can't because it seems like all is lost?
Yeah, kinda caught up in such a situation now.
Guess this has got to be one of the biggest regret in my life and especially with it happening during Christmas, makes it all the more dreary.
Regret not just for doing what I did but an even greater regret hangs in my heart for letting the person down, for failing him and our friendship. For not being what and who I promised to be.
The heaviness of this regret hangs so greatly that it almost seems my life and world has come to a complete standstill.
A dark Christmas this shan't be, I've got to pick myself up and just move on.
NO.Not because I no longer feel heavy in my heart and spirit but because there are so many things and people around with even greater needs and worries that mine just pales in comparison.
Like my good fren who just broke up with his galfren of 3 over years. Like the children I am going to see later at Children Church. Like the friends I will be bringing to church and the new friends I will be meeting this Christmas.
Jesus, help Jere to remember that there is cause for an even greater joy, for You are the Light that came into this earth when it was at its' darkness and illuminated it by bringing hope, joy and and the greatest of it, Love.
Therefore, to one and all; may the joy of the season surround you, Merry Christmas with love.