Here and now I feel that I am...
FAVORITES:
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[An author who had affected you] Michael Levin. I only got a chance to read a part of his book but he did this "journal style" entry in it. Every day I have written in my journal in the exact same way.
[What you most like to do on a Sunday] I don't LIKE to do it but every Sunday, I study.
[A monument you would like to view from your bedroom] Um, the Eiffel Tower? Although I never look out my room window so I don't really care.
[A taste that makes you melt] Oreo Ice Cream!
[A hobby that occupies your time] Nexopia.com
[The film you could watch over and over] Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and Parent Trap
[Your motto] Everyone should get a second chance
FRUITS OF YOUR LABOR:
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[Your approximate annual income] Haha, I work min wage at a part time job and go to school. What do YOU think?
[Something important on your computer desk] My precious Laptop!!
[What you would keep in a safe, if you had one] Money I guess
[Things you like to buy] Makeup, Cosmopolitan Magazines, Caramel Frapuccinos
[If you could afford it at this moment, you would buy] A house to live in without my parents
[You collect] Pictures?
[Your strangest possession] This bird that is supposed to do some sort of magic trick by dipping its head into a glass of water
[Your most expensive possession] Laptop
[Your prized possession] Laptop (haha this is so pathetic)
[If your house was burning and you only had time to rescue 3 things, they would be] Laptop, Photo Albums, Journals
MORALS:
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[Something forbidden you have done that might even surprise your closest friends] Yes, because I'm going to share that here when anyone can read it. Geez!
[The appropriate age for having sex] Everyone's time is personal and it's not a set age but I definitely don't approve of people under 18 having sex!
[Your most recent lie] To my mom
[A lie you tell yourself] That my life is bad
[A drug or alcoholic beverage you take on a regular basis] None
[If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to] Coffee
[What would your reaction be if your spouse or partner cheated on you] Easy--kill him. haha I don't know really. It would depend on the situation but it may involve killing...
FAMILY:
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[Which of your parents do you strongly resemble] Mom
[Something your parents did that you have never forgiven] Age 9 - 17
[A trait you do not share with your siblings] Geekiness and un-popularity
[Your least favorite relative] Don't have one really, there are just some I don't see often enough to care about
FRIENDS:
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[Four traits you look for in a friend] Someone who will take my side/be at my side no matter what, honesty, loyalty, and can make me laugh
[The friend you have known for the longest time] Rachel/Heidi
[The friend you miss the most] Alison...we're not friends anymore because I don't even know what she's up to but I do miss her
[A friend who makes you laugh] Pam
[A friend who you can tell anything] Caitlin
[A friend you can go to for advice] Yvonne and Caitlin
[A friend you can flirt with] Blake? haha seeing as he is one of very few male friends of mine
[A friend you should not flirt with as much as you do] Blake? haha once again I don't really flirt with my friends but if I had to pick, at least make it a guy. Except Pam puts the moves on me sometimes though so...it's a tossup.
[A friend you should not have kissed] Josh
[A friend you may lose soon] I've been losing touch with Amy again unfortunately
[An acquaintance you would like to make a friend] I don't know...Vanessa?
EGO:
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[Your 3 best qualities] Academic Discipline, Good Memory, Organized
[Your 3 worst qualities] Insecure, (a little) Psycho, Quirky
[A special compliment that made you blush] "You have a nice butt"? haha
[An insult that made you burn] Oh there are so many from "You're ugly" to "You're a *bleeping beep*" to "You're insecure"
[The animal that best describes you] Bunny--so scared, so stupid...
[The greatest amount of physical pain you ever endured] Having a wooden stick dragged through my eye at the specialist (and then having a light shined right into the pupil)
[Your best physical feature] I don't know. Hair?
[At your best, you are most like this famous person] I am not like anyone famous
[Your most recent selfless act] Making my sister's bed...? That was just this morning! haha
TOP THREE:
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[3 people you consider to be geniuses] Amy, My dad, Sigmund Freud
[3 inventions you consider to be ingenius] Telephone, Internet, Radio
[Your 3 favorite childhood toys or games] Hungry Hippos, Partymania, Guess Who
[3 words you often use when speaking] basically, like, for real?
[3 sounds that disturb you] Vomiting, vomiting, vomiting
[3 things you would never do] Smoke, Do Drugs, Beastiality
[3 things you would not allow your children to do] Murder, Do Drugs, Get married before age 20
WISHES:
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[Your dream] Just to have a happy family and job
[If you had the talent or the opportunity, you would] Become a singer/songwriter
[Something you wish you could learn at the snap of your fingers] Guitar or how to speak French fluently
[Something you wish you could change about your life] I wish I didn't live at home anymore
[You want to retire at this age] 65
[How do you plan to spend that last years of your life] With my grandbabies
[How would you like to spend the last few minutes of your life] Sleeping
[At your funeral, you want people to remember you as] A wonderful mother
[Something you dreamed that later happened or turned out to be true] SO many things but namely the Disneyland Band Trip 2004...I imagined it right to the last minute
EMOTIONS:
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[The emotion you tend to hide the most] Disappointment
[The emotion you seem to experience the most] Paranoia
[A moment you achieved absolute happiness] Disneyland Band Trip 2004 or Grad
[You would feel envious right now if] One of my VERY close friends got married and had a baby
[A piece of music that makes you sentimental] Beautiful Goodbye - Amanda Marshall
[When you are happy, you need] Nothing more than that
[When you are sad, you need] Ice cream, distraction, Nexopia, and Postsecret.com
[When you are nostalgic, you need] Photos
[When you are angry, you need] To write about it
[When you are lonely, you need] Someone to hug me
[You would jump up and down with joy if someone told you] That I'd won the lottery and could move out of my parents' house and into my own
[The last time you cried uncontrollably was when] I was doing exams in December
[A moment in your life when your emotions froze and you felt absolutely nothing] Also in December, when I started to go numb
[You get angry with yourself when you] Feel unloved--I figure it's because people wouldn't love someone so deranged and twisted
MEMORIES:
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[Your earliest memory] Probably some time around when my sister was born (I was 3.5)
[Describe your first paying job] Kumon Math Tutor
[Describe your best paying job] Teaching Piano
[You are haunted by the memory of] My dad being sick on the Hawaiian Cruise we went on in 2002
[A person who was exceptionally kind to you] Mrs. Hochmann
[A person who made you miserable for a long time] Erik Birner
[A smell that reminds you of your childhood] Sandwiches/Snacks smell of the coatroom
[A routine you remember from your childhood] Getting woken up by my dad, Eating cereal, getting picked up by Mrs. Thiessen, and going to Kindergarten
FEARS:
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[A sickness or disease you fear] The Stomach Flu and Cancer
[A reason for which you would seriously contemplate suicide] Watching my child die
[When people first meet you, you are afraid they will think] I am 12 years old
[Your greatest fear about aging] Not being able to control bodily functions
[Your greatest fear about marriage] Getting divorced
[Your greatest fear about having children] That I'll treat them badly or I wouldn't be a good enough mother
[A plan or project you worry may fail] Music 301 Assignments and Tests
CAT AND MOUSE:
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[When you really want to get to know someone, you say or ask] Can I have your email? (haha!)
[The largest age difference you have had in a relationship] 3 years
[Who was younger] Me
[Something someone said or did that you found extremely attractive] Winking and dressing up nice is attractive
[A saying you've heard about men or women that you believe is true] Men think about sex too much
[A physical trait you find attractive] Clean cut and shaven
[An intellectual ability you find attractive] Being able to hold a good conversation and a high vocabulary
[A personality trait you find attractive] Good with kids
[You are irritated when people ask you] How's school going. Not because I don't like to talk about school--I just don't know what to say.
[You love it when people ask you] Why are you so freakin gorgeous? and Can I get your autograph? (I'm waiting for this to happen...)
[A type of person you don't seem to get along with] Ditzy Party Girls
[You and your spouse or partner argue about this issue often] My parents' rules
[What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship] Having someone to be there for you when everyone else sucks
[What you dislike most about having a committed relationship] I start to expect too much sometimes
SEXUALITY:
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[Your sexiest feature] I don't have any--but I can be cute!
[A place where you've always wanted to make love] A bed...that's where it's supposed to be done is it not
[A special place on your body that, when kissed or touched, feels unbelievably good] Neck/Shoulders
[An unfulfilled fantasy] Getting married...but that shouldn't be for a while
[A fulfilled fantasy] Going to Disneyland with my friends
[A fragrance that reminds you of someone with whom you have been intimate] Old Spice? I don't even know
[The most perverted situation you have ever been in] It wasn't perverted but a REALLY old man (okay maybe he was 30 haha) tried to get me to dance with him at a bar once--yuck
[The approximate number of sexual partners you have had] Approximate? What am I a slut?
[The largest age difference between you and a partner] 3 years
[Who was younger] Me
[You feel most attractive when] I'm thin
[Sex is] Sex. Gosh, what else do you want me to say??
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[An author who had affected you] Michael Levin. I only got a chance to read a part of his book but he did this "journal style" entry in it. Every day I have written in my journal in the exact same way.
[What you most like to do on a Sunday] I don't LIKE to do it but every Sunday, I study.
[A monument you would like to view from your bedroom] Um, the Eiffel Tower? Although I never look out my room window so I don't really care.
[A taste that makes you melt] Oreo Ice Cream!
[A hobby that occupies your time] Nexopia.com
[The film you could watch over and over] Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and Parent Trap
[Your motto] Everyone should get a second chance
FRUITS OF YOUR LABOR:
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[Your approximate annual income] Haha, I work min wage at a part time job and go to school. What do YOU think?
[Something important on your computer desk] My precious Laptop!!
[What you would keep in a safe, if you had one] Money I guess
[Things you like to buy] Makeup, Cosmopolitan Magazines, Caramel Frapuccinos
[If you could afford it at this moment, you would buy] A house to live in without my parents
[You collect] Pictures?
[Your strangest possession] This bird that is supposed to do some sort of magic trick by dipping its head into a glass of water
[Your most expensive possession] Laptop
[Your prized possession] Laptop (haha this is so pathetic)
[If your house was burning and you only had time to rescue 3 things, they would be] Laptop, Photo Albums, Journals
MORALS:
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[Something forbidden you have done that might even surprise your closest friends] Yes, because I'm going to share that here when anyone can read it. Geez!
[The appropriate age for having sex] Everyone's time is personal and it's not a set age but I definitely don't approve of people under 18 having sex!
[Your most recent lie] To my mom
[A lie you tell yourself] That my life is bad
[A drug or alcoholic beverage you take on a regular basis] None
[If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to] Coffee
[What would your reaction be if your spouse or partner cheated on you] Easy--kill him. haha I don't know really. It would depend on the situation but it may involve killing...
FAMILY:
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[Which of your parents do you strongly resemble] Mom
[Something your parents did that you have never forgiven] Age 9 - 17
[A trait you do not share with your siblings] Geekiness and un-popularity
[Your least favorite relative] Don't have one really, there are just some I don't see often enough to care about
FRIENDS:
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[Four traits you look for in a friend] Someone who will take my side/be at my side no matter what, honesty, loyalty, and can make me laugh
[The friend you have known for the longest time] Rachel/Heidi
[The friend you miss the most] Alison...we're not friends anymore because I don't even know what she's up to but I do miss her
[A friend who makes you laugh] Pam
[A friend who you can tell anything] Caitlin
[A friend you can go to for advice] Yvonne and Caitlin
[A friend you can flirt with] Blake? haha seeing as he is one of very few male friends of mine
[A friend you should not flirt with as much as you do] Blake? haha once again I don't really flirt with my friends but if I had to pick, at least make it a guy. Except Pam puts the moves on me sometimes though so...it's a tossup.
[A friend you should not have kissed] Josh
[A friend you may lose soon] I've been losing touch with Amy again unfortunately
[An acquaintance you would like to make a friend] I don't know...Vanessa?
EGO:
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[Your 3 best qualities] Academic Discipline, Good Memory, Organized
[Your 3 worst qualities] Insecure, (a little) Psycho, Quirky
[A special compliment that made you blush] "You have a nice butt"? haha
[An insult that made you burn] Oh there are so many from "You're ugly" to "You're a *bleeping beep*" to "You're insecure"
[The animal that best describes you] Bunny--so scared, so stupid...
[The greatest amount of physical pain you ever endured] Having a wooden stick dragged through my eye at the specialist (and then having a light shined right into the pupil)
[Your best physical feature] I don't know. Hair?
[At your best, you are most like this famous person] I am not like anyone famous
[Your most recent selfless act] Making my sister's bed...? That was just this morning! haha
TOP THREE:
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[3 people you consider to be geniuses] Amy, My dad, Sigmund Freud
[3 inventions you consider to be ingenius] Telephone, Internet, Radio
[Your 3 favorite childhood toys or games] Hungry Hippos, Partymania, Guess Who
[3 words you often use when speaking] basically, like, for real?
[3 sounds that disturb you] Vomiting, vomiting, vomiting
[3 things you would never do] Smoke, Do Drugs, Beastiality
[3 things you would not allow your children to do] Murder, Do Drugs, Get married before age 20
WISHES:
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[Your dream] Just to have a happy family and job
[If you had the talent or the opportunity, you would] Become a singer/songwriter
[Something you wish you could learn at the snap of your fingers] Guitar or how to speak French fluently
[Something you wish you could change about your life] I wish I didn't live at home anymore
[You want to retire at this age] 65
[How do you plan to spend that last years of your life] With my grandbabies
[How would you like to spend the last few minutes of your life] Sleeping
[At your funeral, you want people to remember you as] A wonderful mother
[Something you dreamed that later happened or turned out to be true] SO many things but namely the Disneyland Band Trip 2004...I imagined it right to the last minute
EMOTIONS:
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[The emotion you tend to hide the most] Disappointment
[The emotion you seem to experience the most] Paranoia
[A moment you achieved absolute happiness] Disneyland Band Trip 2004 or Grad
[You would feel envious right now if] One of my VERY close friends got married and had a baby
[A piece of music that makes you sentimental] Beautiful Goodbye - Amanda Marshall
[When you are happy, you need] Nothing more than that
[When you are sad, you need] Ice cream, distraction, Nexopia, and Postsecret.com
[When you are nostalgic, you need] Photos
[When you are angry, you need] To write about it
[When you are lonely, you need] Someone to hug me
[You would jump up and down with joy if someone told you] That I'd won the lottery and could move out of my parents' house and into my own
[The last time you cried uncontrollably was when] I was doing exams in December
[A moment in your life when your emotions froze and you felt absolutely nothing] Also in December, when I started to go numb
[You get angry with yourself when you] Feel unloved--I figure it's because people wouldn't love someone so deranged and twisted
MEMORIES:
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[Your earliest memory] Probably some time around when my sister was born (I was 3.5)
[Describe your first paying job] Kumon Math Tutor
[Describe your best paying job] Teaching Piano
[You are haunted by the memory of] My dad being sick on the Hawaiian Cruise we went on in 2002
[A person who was exceptionally kind to you] Mrs. Hochmann
[A person who made you miserable for a long time] Erik Birner
[A smell that reminds you of your childhood] Sandwiches/Snacks smell of the coatroom
[A routine you remember from your childhood] Getting woken up by my dad, Eating cereal, getting picked up by Mrs. Thiessen, and going to Kindergarten
FEARS:
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[A sickness or disease you fear] The Stomach Flu and Cancer
[A reason for which you would seriously contemplate suicide] Watching my child die
[When people first meet you, you are afraid they will think] I am 12 years old
[Your greatest fear about aging] Not being able to control bodily functions
[Your greatest fear about marriage] Getting divorced
[Your greatest fear about having children] That I'll treat them badly or I wouldn't be a good enough mother
[A plan or project you worry may fail] Music 301 Assignments and Tests
CAT AND MOUSE:
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[When you really want to get to know someone, you say or ask] Can I have your email? (haha!)
[The largest age difference you have had in a relationship] 3 years
[Who was younger] Me
[Something someone said or did that you found extremely attractive] Winking and dressing up nice is attractive
[A saying you've heard about men or women that you believe is true] Men think about sex too much
[A physical trait you find attractive] Clean cut and shaven
[An intellectual ability you find attractive] Being able to hold a good conversation and a high vocabulary
[A personality trait you find attractive] Good with kids
[You are irritated when people ask you] How's school going. Not because I don't like to talk about school--I just don't know what to say.
[You love it when people ask you] Why are you so freakin gorgeous? and Can I get your autograph? (I'm waiting for this to happen...)
[A type of person you don't seem to get along with] Ditzy Party Girls
[You and your spouse or partner argue about this issue often] My parents' rules
[What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship] Having someone to be there for you when everyone else sucks
[What you dislike most about having a committed relationship] I start to expect too much sometimes
SEXUALITY:
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[Your sexiest feature] I don't have any--but I can be cute!
[A place where you've always wanted to make love] A bed...that's where it's supposed to be done is it not
[A special place on your body that, when kissed or touched, feels unbelievably good] Neck/Shoulders
[An unfulfilled fantasy] Getting married...but that shouldn't be for a while
[A fulfilled fantasy] Going to Disneyland with my friends
[A fragrance that reminds you of someone with whom you have been intimate] Old Spice? I don't even know
[The most perverted situation you have ever been in] It wasn't perverted but a REALLY old man (okay maybe he was 30 haha) tried to get me to dance with him at a bar once--yuck
[The approximate number of sexual partners you have had] Approximate? What am I a slut?
[The largest age difference between you and a partner] 3 years
[Who was younger] Me
[You feel most attractive when] I'm thin
[Sex is] Sex. Gosh, what else do you want me to say??