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My heart feels sad tonight. It's 10:30 and my boyfriend went to bed without hugging me for the first time since living together, because he was "too tired." That hurt my feelings. I've felt so disheartened (is that the word) lately. I know that things are not all right with me which totally affects the way that I view the outside world, but on top of that, there is also just a sad, gloomy feeling in my world right now.
My gramma passed away on May 2. She was 92. I'd never been to a funeral before. It was so sad. But she is in a better place. I was able to see her before she died. I feel so fortunate. She seemed so peaceful, and tired. She asked me how the weather was outside. I told her it was really perfect outside. She smiled. She told me I had a sweet smile, and when I was leaving, she called me Dennis. It made me so happy.
My job hasn't been going so great. I've been offered a new position as a full-time merchandiser at a brand new store but I don't know if I'm going to take it. It's far from here and I don't have a car. I dunno. I'm thinking about it right now.
I watched this movie, Waco - The Rules Of Engagement. Talk about an effing bummer. About the US governement and just this cruel, unjust world that we live in. It was so depressing.
I feel so uninspired. So unmotivated. I hate the feeling of there never being enough time. I hate feeling controlled by my emotions. It's so easy to just sink into them and be so lazy. I hate writing a depressing post. But tonight, I need to. I hate Rogers. And I hate Toronto. Sometimes. Ugh.
My gramma passed away on May 2. She was 92. I'd never been to a funeral before. It was so sad. But she is in a better place. I was able to see her before she died. I feel so fortunate. She seemed so peaceful, and tired. She asked me how the weather was outside. I told her it was really perfect outside. She smiled. She told me I had a sweet smile, and when I was leaving, she called me Dennis. It made me so happy.
My job hasn't been going so great. I've been offered a new position as a full-time merchandiser at a brand new store but I don't know if I'm going to take it. It's far from here and I don't have a car. I dunno. I'm thinking about it right now.
I watched this movie, Waco - The Rules Of Engagement. Talk about an effing bummer. About the US governement and just this cruel, unjust world that we live in. It was so depressing.
I feel so uninspired. So unmotivated. I hate the feeling of there never being enough time. I hate feeling controlled by my emotions. It's so easy to just sink into them and be so lazy. I hate writing a depressing post. But tonight, I need to. I hate Rogers. And I hate Toronto. Sometimes. Ugh.