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Hey everyone.....I know I haven't updated in a long time; then again, it really doesnt matter considering that hardly ne1 reads this and the one person who I was certain that did does not have livejournal nemore.....lol...Newaz, it helps to write what is going on...so I am lol. Let me see...where do I start....Well, first of all, my body is not healing properly......I thought it was but nope...still retarded. I have something called Titsi Syndrome-a condition in which ure ribs and cartlidge are not connected. According to the doctor, it hurts like a bitch but I could have told him that. I had an MRI last week which will confirm if I have spinal fluid in my neck or if I need surgery for my rotators cuff.....all fun prospects if you ask me......Anyway, because of all this I cannot go to school this semester either...I need to rest, have possible surgery, and then start therapy....School was fun though on the first day....lol. Um in other news, my boy left for the middle east....he will be there for 4 months. I gotta admit that I was taking it extremely hard the first few days.....but today is the 3rd day and I believe that it will be semi-alright....I miss him terribly....I can smell him everywhere...see where he was around the house...even see him at times.....everytime the phone rings or some1 rings the doorbell I secretly think it is him and that he either went AWOL or that they sent him home early......Deep down inside, I know that he will be ok. He is in somewhat of a safe place and he will be preoccupied with the busy and stressful asks that lie infront of him....IN all honesty, I am worried about myself....I dont know how I am going to do it. As of today, I cannot drive....I am stuck in a house in which all I can do is think of him and wish that he was beside me.....Least today I am not wasting my day crying.....I just need something that I can do to take my mind off of him and let the days pass by quickly....Maybe I need a hobby....or a few friends to show me a good time-lol....I dont know..I Just know that i need to keep my mind on something positive for 4 months until my baby returns......Ne suggestions? I just wish that I could wake up tomorrow and it would be January 1st...a new year..a new beginning...and the chance to hold him again.....
~Nat
~Nat