hummm..
hey whats up guys?
not much here... just check*in up on this!! i haven*t wrote in here forever!!
i don*t know what is wrong with me!! lol
what*s new with me??... a lot.. and a lot i really don*t wanna talk about!!
lets just say Life has been REALLY suck*y lately!! i just i dunno........ i screwed up something i had going...... i messed it up... i was soo disapointed... only me.. ((I)) would understand everything.. but some people have an idea... i just wish i could take bak time.. and start all over..! i would change a lot of things about me.. and my mistakes! I am tired of people gettin in other peoples business.. i am tired of all the rumors.. im tired of all the diiirty looks.. like i am some sort of animal.. i am sick of everybody judging everyone... why can*t everybody just get the F&%# along? i am soooo---> glad summer is almost here! its like a breather!! this past.. i learned a lot... and i F&%$ed up.. but.. i learned a lot! i can*t explain it.... but umm... just.. think ..before it is tooo late..! i could of had something i really was looking for... it was right there under my nose.. and well.. i didnt even think about it! i think i have changed... ((good wayy)) today.. was umm an alright day.. ashley and i matched out pink lil dickies skirts! (lawyer twins! hhaa)... haa.. we had a lot of fun in 2nd period we went n got strzempka coffee.. but he didnt want it.. and so we got to drink it.. n i was jumpin off the walls lol.. but .. yea.. my brother is coming home this weekend!!!! and then he is off to japan for 2 years!! ='( ! its going to be soo weird watching my brother just walk onto a plane.. knowing i can't see him for about 2 years! im going to be like an adult. the next time i see him.! i grew up with this kid... and im watching him grow.. grow away from me.. its soo different.. he might of hurt me.. messing around punching and stuff.. but.. i was use to it everyday.. i was used to him always being here.. in my home.. in his room.. doing something.. talking to him.. and now.. i sit here.. look at his room.. empty.. EMPTY.. his not there... hes moved on with his life.. im really proud of him making it were he wanted to be.. thats a marine.. but anyway... school is almost over... i tried.. n i hope i suceed.. .. i just wish i could put my mind to something like my brother.. and someone actually be proud of me..... instead... im nothing.. i do nothing right.......................... ='(
not much here... just check*in up on this!! i haven*t wrote in here forever!!
i don*t know what is wrong with me!! lol
what*s new with me??... a lot.. and a lot i really don*t wanna talk about!!
lets just say Life has been REALLY suck*y lately!! i just i dunno........ i screwed up something i had going...... i messed it up... i was soo disapointed... only me.. ((I)) would understand everything.. but some people have an idea... i just wish i could take bak time.. and start all over..! i would change a lot of things about me.. and my mistakes! I am tired of people gettin in other peoples business.. i am tired of all the rumors.. im tired of all the diiirty looks.. like i am some sort of animal.. i am sick of everybody judging everyone... why can*t everybody just get the F&%# along? i am soooo---> glad summer is almost here! its like a breather!! this past.. i learned a lot... and i F&%$ed up.. but.. i learned a lot! i can*t explain it.... but umm... just.. think ..before it is tooo late..! i could of had something i really was looking for... it was right there under my nose.. and well.. i didnt even think about it! i think i have changed... ((good wayy)) today.. was umm an alright day.. ashley and i matched out pink lil dickies skirts! (lawyer twins! hhaa)... haa.. we had a lot of fun in 2nd period we went n got strzempka coffee.. but he didnt want it.. and so we got to drink it.. n i was jumpin off the walls lol.. but .. yea.. my brother is coming home this weekend!!!! and then he is off to japan for 2 years!! ='( ! its going to be soo weird watching my brother just walk onto a plane.. knowing i can't see him for about 2 years! im going to be like an adult. the next time i see him.! i grew up with this kid... and im watching him grow.. grow away from me.. its soo different.. he might of hurt me.. messing around punching and stuff.. but.. i was use to it everyday.. i was used to him always being here.. in my home.. in his room.. doing something.. talking to him.. and now.. i sit here.. look at his room.. empty.. EMPTY.. his not there... hes moved on with his life.. im really proud of him making it were he wanted to be.. thats a marine.. but anyway... school is almost over... i tried.. n i hope i suceed.. .. i just wish i could put my mind to something like my brother.. and someone actually be proud of me..... instead... im nothing.. i do nothing right.......................... ='(