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uhhh.. where do i begin...
Okay. I haven't been updating this thing at all again because i've been busy, that and my life is so boring lately and theres nothing worth writing about. Plus my life sucks like this...
Yea like dead anchovies. Yum.................
Okay. So I'm going to talk about a few problems I have. So if you care to read it You Freakin' Rock!! But if you don't, I understand.
Well, my mom always asks me to do stuff around the house and for her. and I'm nice and I do them. But of course when it comes to me needing help she finds ways, reasons, and excuses to get out of it. All I asked her if she would help me clean my ferrets' cage. But she said she had to go to my grandma's but she would be home later. So i asked her later and she said she had to watch survivor but it will be over in an hour so ask then. So thats what i did.. but what do ya know it last three hours last night. So whatever. I did it myself. I told her not to ask me for anything! But of course she stayed home to day and right when i walked in the door she said "Can you help me with something?" I said no.. but did it anyway. Gosh! I freaking hate it!
Then my dad.... whoa what a total jerk. He yells at me for random things. Basiclly anything he can. I couldn't tell you what for because I don't pay attention. I think he just takes everything out on me because he hates his job, and he is always grumpy because his back hurts him. and hey I'm here is there so why not! That or he just hates me. Or both whose ta know. Ohh but of course once again I do everything he asks for. What the hell is wrong with me?
I'm having boy problems too. I like one of my guy friends, but I'm not sure if he likes me. We flirt a lot but who knows.. everyone does that. Plus he could have any girl he wanted so why pick me.
The other guy i really like has a girlfriend...kinda. lol. AHHH! That sucks majorly!!! But I told him today that I liked him a lot. So we'll see how that goes. But chances are it won't probably do much...or anything.
Last but not least another guy i like... well i know he likes me and he jsut wants to get closer before anything happens. Well.. WE ARE CLOSE! lol. No seriously we hang out all the freakin' time. If i'm not home i'm with him. And its been like that for a while now.. but yet.. stil nothing has happened. I don't get it. Maybe he just realized - wow this girl sucks. and doesn't like me anymore or something. I really don't know. But whatever. I'm done waiting for him and plus whatever made me like him is kinda wearing off. So whatever.
I usually don't like multiple people at a time. But whatever. I'm just gonna try to not care and worry about every little thing anymore. I'll find an activity or hobbie that gets everything in my mind out. And I'll try to start making myself happy too, instead of making everyone else happy and ignoring what i want/feel. Don't get me wrong I'm still gonna try and make everyone else happy and such... but try and include myself. I hope that doesn't sound conceited.
Well... I think that's all for now. heh.
Ohh just one more thing. I used to be able to talk to my mom about anything and I knew she would listen and care... but not anymore. Because everytime i talk she goes "what did you say" and i seriously have to repeat myself 3 times or more. And she doesn't make eye contact. She just sits there and watch t.v. That or if i'm in the middle of talking she cuts me off and talks about something else. So I am gonna stop talking about things to her. See how she likes that. She probably won't care and i'm sure she probably won't even notice.
Alrighty. Byee.