AHHHHHH, HORSE-SHIT!!!
So, I've been doing some thinking today and I'm sick of San Angelo. Like...really sick of it. Here's why:
I need a goddamn 2nd job or a job that's willing to pay me a lot of effing money *which is nearly impossible in San Angelo when I don't have a degree...hell, I'm not even in college right now* and the only connections I have are at really crappy jobs that will only pay me minimum wage. Another thing that really sucks is that Victoria's Secret called me back the other day to told me that I didn't do well on the phone interview thing so they can't hire me back on. So, that's one bridge that's completely burned. I think that maybe I just need a new surrounding...I need to be away from my family...away from all of the bullshit that goes with living here. I mean, yeah, it's great to see a familiar face almost everywhere I go but some of those are faces I'd just as soon forget. I'm burning too many bridges here and I hate this claustrophobic feeling that I have rising in my gut. I've said before that I didn't want to try and move to Vegas with Nikki until I was out of college but right now, that option is looking pretty sweet. I mean, my lease on my apartment will be up in October...Shane mentioned earlier that he was thinking about moving out and I don't know about living here just with his sister and Vonteesha. Don't get me wrong...they're both really cool, but not generally the kind of people that I would hang out with on a regular basis if it weren't for the fact that we kind of live together right now....well, maybe Vonteesha but not Sheree. But, according to Nikki, she might not be in Vegas for too much longer...and I wouldn't want to be a burden. There's no hope of living in San Antonio again, especially without a car and my living options are limited to maybe my mother...but I don't really want to be around her (nor do I particularly want to talk to her) right now because she's being an asshole to Nikki and I don't appreciate that. So, shit, shit, shitty, shit, shit, shit...balls...ass...whore.
Alright...now I'm all worked up...I think I need a break from thinking. So, I bid you all adieu until next time...
~Roanna
I need a goddamn 2nd job or a job that's willing to pay me a lot of effing money *which is nearly impossible in San Angelo when I don't have a degree...hell, I'm not even in college right now* and the only connections I have are at really crappy jobs that will only pay me minimum wage. Another thing that really sucks is that Victoria's Secret called me back the other day to told me that I didn't do well on the phone interview thing so they can't hire me back on. So, that's one bridge that's completely burned. I think that maybe I just need a new surrounding...I need to be away from my family...away from all of the bullshit that goes with living here. I mean, yeah, it's great to see a familiar face almost everywhere I go but some of those are faces I'd just as soon forget. I'm burning too many bridges here and I hate this claustrophobic feeling that I have rising in my gut. I've said before that I didn't want to try and move to Vegas with Nikki until I was out of college but right now, that option is looking pretty sweet. I mean, my lease on my apartment will be up in October...Shane mentioned earlier that he was thinking about moving out and I don't know about living here just with his sister and Vonteesha. Don't get me wrong...they're both really cool, but not generally the kind of people that I would hang out with on a regular basis if it weren't for the fact that we kind of live together right now....well, maybe Vonteesha but not Sheree. But, according to Nikki, she might not be in Vegas for too much longer...and I wouldn't want to be a burden. There's no hope of living in San Antonio again, especially without a car and my living options are limited to maybe my mother...but I don't really want to be around her (nor do I particularly want to talk to her) right now because she's being an asshole to Nikki and I don't appreciate that. So, shit, shit, shitty, shit, shit, shit...balls...ass...whore.
Alright...now I'm all worked up...I think I need a break from thinking. So, I bid you all adieu until next time...
~Roanna