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hey everyone... today sucks my little chihuaha/terrie/poodle hasnt been home in a week today... i think someone shot him...and that sucks...now my other dog is depressed too cuz he wont eat and hes lost an excessive amount of weight...and all he does is sleep kinda like me except for the eating..that dog was like my best friend...i've had him for 5 years and he protected me nobody could touch me.. its gonna suck with him gone.. i miss him so much i keep thinking that hes gonna show up at the sliding door and whine for me to let him in...and sometimes when i look out the door i think i see him i started crying like 5 times today..he slept in my bed everynight right by me...i want him back so bad..i feel so depressed...its gonna be hard to live with out him and it sucks because i was just learning how to cope with depression and now it sucks because im depressed all over again...im gonna try to not cut but..i dunno im so tired of thinking about everything sometimes i just wish that.....everything would be done and that i wouldnt have to put up with everything...but i guess thats not the way it is...im gonna go....cry im scared to do it in front of every body cuz i dont want them to think im weird or anything... i dont feel like crying right now...but i dont know..im gonna go... have a cigarette to get rid of the weird feeling i have in my stomach ....so yeah..peace..I LOVE YOU All!!
-Traci-
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-Traci-
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