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Everything is FUCKED UP!!! It's like everything I want is evading me. It turns out what I thought I wanted might not be what's best for me. I don't even want to think about the flip side. Although it scared me. I don't like insecurity. It scares the hell out of me. Then again maybe it is what's best for me and I just have to live with it. this is going to suck. and then i'm kind of uncomfortable. If it goes how I want everythings fine but if I falter, then I suffer, yet again. go me. it's a times like these that I wish I could just delete my self from the picture and not have to deal with everyone staring at me like I'm the fucking devil. I just want to breathe without he weight of EVERYONE'S eyes baring down into my back. shit, this sucks. It was supposed to be relieveing but I'm only killing myself and I wish I could hit rewind.