i lie
guess what?
you annoy me when im manic. in fact id prefer not talking to you at all!! and YOU will never know who YOU are. but i bet ill keep YOU wondering? huh? huh? oh no shes lost it once again. whheeeh feel better. you're fine. I AM FUCKING NOT FINE THANK YOU. :-)
ive fucking gone and snapped and saw it bold as a sharpie, the cause was NOTHING! why is this greater power then me able to flip my switch? its my god damned switch is it not? fucks sake. i try but i can not take this fucking absurd mood flipping, not even behind my back anymote. in front of my face.
MANIC IS NOT JUST BEING HAPPY SO DONT EVER THINK WHEN IM MANIC I AM OKAY. IT PRODUCES ANGER AND ANNOYANCE TO AN UNCONTROLABLE LEVEL THAT SOME OF YOU MAY NEVER EVEN IMAGINE. plus chances are good that by the time you read this and comment I will be sane once again or alreday into another INSANE bout.
as i cough up my brains.
I APPRECITATED LIFE TODAY AND YOU GIVE ME THIS? SOME SICK TEST RIGHT? HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT I WILL KEEP FAITH IN YOU AND IN HELL? what if i DO NOT AND I SNAP. YOU WILL LAUGH? or will you because you wont be there. create this fucker!! (im sorry)
now that that is all cleared. why am i able to talk to anyone online or on the phone or most strangers but when theres someone i maybe wish to persue interest in i freak out and am not able to even say hi!! when it is more then obvious i am interested. blah i guess it was never meant to happen but i wish i werent so shy sometimes. you intimidate me and i like that yet i can sense our personalities clashing and still feel curiousity to get to know you. i hate physical appearance ...er something. but even when there is another you that actually showed me an act of kindness i couldn't introduce myself or say anything other then thanks because once again i am shy. I BAN MY TIMIDNESS AS OF NOW! i like your voice and that is a first for me. it is comforting as if i know you and i know who you remind me of but still. blah what is wrong with mE? virginia woolfe knows well. "...is what keeps us alive" right? IM FUCKING LIVING MAN AND I LOVE IT!!!
and now i laugh at myself but i feel better. :-)
you annoy me when im manic. in fact id prefer not talking to you at all!! and YOU will never know who YOU are. but i bet ill keep YOU wondering? huh? huh? oh no shes lost it once again. whheeeh feel better. you're fine. I AM FUCKING NOT FINE THANK YOU. :-)
ive fucking gone and snapped and saw it bold as a sharpie, the cause was NOTHING! why is this greater power then me able to flip my switch? its my god damned switch is it not? fucks sake. i try but i can not take this fucking absurd mood flipping, not even behind my back anymote. in front of my face.
MANIC IS NOT JUST BEING HAPPY SO DONT EVER THINK WHEN IM MANIC I AM OKAY. IT PRODUCES ANGER AND ANNOYANCE TO AN UNCONTROLABLE LEVEL THAT SOME OF YOU MAY NEVER EVEN IMAGINE. plus chances are good that by the time you read this and comment I will be sane once again or alreday into another INSANE bout.
as i cough up my brains.
I APPRECITATED LIFE TODAY AND YOU GIVE ME THIS? SOME SICK TEST RIGHT? HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT I WILL KEEP FAITH IN YOU AND IN HELL? what if i DO NOT AND I SNAP. YOU WILL LAUGH? or will you because you wont be there. create this fucker!! (im sorry)
now that that is all cleared. why am i able to talk to anyone online or on the phone or most strangers but when theres someone i maybe wish to persue interest in i freak out and am not able to even say hi!! when it is more then obvious i am interested. blah i guess it was never meant to happen but i wish i werent so shy sometimes. you intimidate me and i like that yet i can sense our personalities clashing and still feel curiousity to get to know you. i hate physical appearance ...er something. but even when there is another you that actually showed me an act of kindness i couldn't introduce myself or say anything other then thanks because once again i am shy. I BAN MY TIMIDNESS AS OF NOW! i like your voice and that is a first for me. it is comforting as if i know you and i know who you remind me of but still. blah what is wrong with mE? virginia woolfe knows well. "...is what keeps us alive" right? IM FUCKING LIVING MAN AND I LOVE IT!!!
and now i laugh at myself but i feel better. :-)