Holding pattern
[locked post]
I wish Lois would keep her naughty things to herself. She actually asked my opinion about lingerie she was thinking of bringing with her on a trip that her and her gorgeous boyfriend, Oliver are going on. I reminded her that I'm more of a boxer briefs kind of guy. Lois takes all kinds of pleasure in telling me she keeps forgetting I bat for the other team because ' I just don't look gay.' I know she's teasing, and most of the time, I just ignore her because that's so easy to pretend she's not talking. I wonder what she'd think of Oliver if I told her about his new year's proposition. I'd never say anything. I don't want to hurt Lois, as much as she delights in trying to hurt me. She doesn't really mean the things she says. She's just covering up for her own insecurities, or so my mom says. I just wish she'd do it in another state.
I feel like I'm stuck in a holding pattern. I want to do something, but I'm not sure what that something is. I talked to Oliver about school and what courses to take. He was too preoccupied to be of much help. I knew he wasn't really listening, because at one point, I suggested I become a chef and he said that was a great idea. At least he had the decency to blush when I caught him tuning me out.
I have an idea of what I want to do with my life, but I need to talk to Lex about it. I did see him briefly. He looked tired and worn out. I wanted to hold him in my arms and tell him that everything would work out, but his body language was so closed off, I didn't want to risk having him order me out of his office. I briefly mentioned the course list and maybe getting together with him to discuss what classes I could enroll in. He didn't reject the idea completely, but we didn't make any solid plans of when to meet. I was hoping he would, so I stayed in his office as long as possible, but he had meetings to get to. I wish he'd at least call me. I would give him a call, but I'm already one call short of having Lex put a restraining order out on me.
I wish Lois would keep her naughty things to herself. She actually asked my opinion about lingerie she was thinking of bringing with her on a trip that her and her gorgeous boyfriend, Oliver are going on. I reminded her that I'm more of a boxer briefs kind of guy. Lois takes all kinds of pleasure in telling me she keeps forgetting I bat for the other team because ' I just don't look gay.' I know she's teasing, and most of the time, I just ignore her because that's so easy to pretend she's not talking. I wonder what she'd think of Oliver if I told her about his new year's proposition. I'd never say anything. I don't want to hurt Lois, as much as she delights in trying to hurt me. She doesn't really mean the things she says. She's just covering up for her own insecurities, or so my mom says. I just wish she'd do it in another state.
I feel like I'm stuck in a holding pattern. I want to do something, but I'm not sure what that something is. I talked to Oliver about school and what courses to take. He was too preoccupied to be of much help. I knew he wasn't really listening, because at one point, I suggested I become a chef and he said that was a great idea. At least he had the decency to blush when I caught him tuning me out.
I have an idea of what I want to do with my life, but I need to talk to Lex about it. I did see him briefly. He looked tired and worn out. I wanted to hold him in my arms and tell him that everything would work out, but his body language was so closed off, I didn't want to risk having him order me out of his office. I briefly mentioned the course list and maybe getting together with him to discuss what classes I could enroll in. He didn't reject the idea completely, but we didn't make any solid plans of when to meet. I was hoping he would, so I stayed in his office as long as possible, but he had meetings to get to. I wish he'd at least call me. I would give him a call, but I'm already one call short of having Lex put a restraining order out on me.