Apr 02, 2013 17:35
Leaving to go to Manchester, I was nervous as hell. I believe the impression I made was good but only time can tell.
Meeting Eli, was a breath of fresh air welcoming and amazing. Immediately lost in his eye's and his voice I was done. Take me away now in a rage of cuddling and kisses. At moments I was lost in clarity but I realized it's the moments that I will cherish and maybe I was a little abrasive about being together and It's my own fault I should have listened more before rushing to conclusion's. Being with him for two day's was what I needed it made me see what I needed to refocus on and just wait and see what becomes of this between us. Lastly what I will say is Eli is an amazing man he's got a rough outside but on the inside he's screaming for a welcomed embrace and someone to care for him and lavish him with care and love.
My own life right now will get back on track being away help me take in what's going to have to happen and plan it out in my head. I'm going to take charge and do what's best for me. Moving will probably be my top priority. I'm done with Virgina it's course has run out and it's dull to me. I need to retake my heart and instead following my gut. It's going to create chaos but I love it!
Life in a round about way feel's good. The visit was what I needed and leaving wasn't easy I'll tell you this. I was already missing him once we took off. How pathetic is that??