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Bleh...this has been one of the most boring summers I have ever had to endure. I'm usually hanging out with friends this time of the year, but the only friend who gives a damn isn't here. Tomorrow I leave to go to Lake Havasu...again. We're leaving at 5am, spending a day and a night there, then driving to Phoenix and staying there until Sunday. I don't really want to go, but if I don't I'll just have to go to my mom's house which is 10 times worse. Oh well, I'm bring a bunch of boredom crap, so hopefully it wont be too bad.
I know I bring up this subject in almost every other entry, but lately my LJ has been the only person...thing I could rant to so feel free to skip over this topic if you're tired of me blabing about it. Why must a certain friend of mine make it obviously clear that she hates me, but refuses to face me? I've been tring to forget about her and move on because I know I don't need someone like her as a friend...why bother? The only reason I haven't stopped talking to her all together is because she's Sarah's friend, but I know that if someone else were in Sarah's place and Sarah wasn't her close friend, Sarah would tell me that I shouldn't be sacrificing my own happiness just to be friends with just one of them. It's just been extremely hard dealing with this all by myself. I just wish so bad that I could go live with my dad and Sally in Phoenix. I could completely start over and forget about how things are now. The best part is that nobody would know me and I could make new friends with normal, everyday issues! I'm so tired of keeping the problams with my friends a secret. Maybe they're the ones being bad friends by not allowing me to tell anyone and making me suffer alone. I hate the feeling that I can't talk to anyone who'll understand me. Sarah used to be there for me all the time and she understood everything, but theres no way she'd be able to understand how I feel now! Ok if you didn 't get this entire paragraph then my apologies ^^;...please ignore.
On a slightly happier notw, I have offically decided ot try out for the school's girl's tennis team. Tennis hasn't been something I usually do competivly, but if I don't take a sport this year then I'll have to take P.E my entire Sophmore year @_____@. I am so bad at running it's not even funny. I seriously can't run a mile in under 10 minutes...I'm ashamed of myself...XD I'd like to go practice sometime, but the nearest courts don't have walls to practice on. maybe I'll ask my dad to play with me when he gets home from work. I need to get out of the house.
I know I bring up this subject in almost every other entry, but lately my LJ has been the only person...thing I could rant to so feel free to skip over this topic if you're tired of me blabing about it. Why must a certain friend of mine make it obviously clear that she hates me, but refuses to face me? I've been tring to forget about her and move on because I know I don't need someone like her as a friend...why bother? The only reason I haven't stopped talking to her all together is because she's Sarah's friend, but I know that if someone else were in Sarah's place and Sarah wasn't her close friend, Sarah would tell me that I shouldn't be sacrificing my own happiness just to be friends with just one of them. It's just been extremely hard dealing with this all by myself. I just wish so bad that I could go live with my dad and Sally in Phoenix. I could completely start over and forget about how things are now. The best part is that nobody would know me and I could make new friends with normal, everyday issues! I'm so tired of keeping the problams with my friends a secret. Maybe they're the ones being bad friends by not allowing me to tell anyone and making me suffer alone. I hate the feeling that I can't talk to anyone who'll understand me. Sarah used to be there for me all the time and she understood everything, but theres no way she'd be able to understand how I feel now! Ok if you didn 't get this entire paragraph then my apologies ^^;...please ignore.
On a slightly happier notw, I have offically decided ot try out for the school's girl's tennis team. Tennis hasn't been something I usually do competivly, but if I don't take a sport this year then I'll have to take P.E my entire Sophmore year @_____@. I am so bad at running it's not even funny. I seriously can't run a mile in under 10 minutes...I'm ashamed of myself...XD I'd like to go practice sometime, but the nearest courts don't have walls to practice on. maybe I'll ask my dad to play with me when he gets home from work. I need to get out of the house.