concentrate. concentrate.

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So, writing my final journal entry for my dumb internship class was surprisingly beneficial in that I came to realize just how much I learned this semester. I think LA is probably the best thing I could've done this semester for me. I learned so much about my college experience- about the people that surrounded me for the last four years, the people that continued to surround me here, and the people who were away from me. I was just so set in this little bubble, and LA was an awakening I really needed. So many things were put into persepctive for me, and without really going into too many details I am not going back to Boston. It's funny how much one's plans can change- I was so dead set on going back there when I first came out to LA. I think I grew up a lot here, and realized what is really important to me. I think my Emerson education is so valuable, but I really don't feel there's much more it can provide for me as of now. Four years is actually a really long time to learn- when I weed through the classes I've taken I could probably even throw a few more out and safely say it could've sufficed in 3 years. A lot of people say that college is such a great experience, and you shouldn't rush through it, and I completely agree. I don't feel as though I rushed through anything, I am completely ready to put it behind me and continue on with my life. I loved my Emerson experience-most of the time- but I do not want to take the chance of dragging something on and leaving on a bad note, while I can leave on a (at least somewhat) positive note here. Kind of like Sex and the City stopping. Haha, I'm a dork, but yeah. The funny thing is, most likely all that I need- both from Emerson and outside of Emerson- will around me once I come back to LA, or near enough to me to be okay. I miss Boston, and a lot of the people there now, and I am so excited to go back in May to walk. But I think I've finally allowed myself to think that it's okay to not make myself go back.

Okay, that was probably a whole lot of babble but I am at work and covering phones- hence I dont get any projects since they like to shelter me when i cover phones and make sure I'm not too stressed with other work. Which, of course, means updating LJ, rather than finishing homework. Haha. Only four classes left!