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Stranded at the drive in,
stranded in a drive by.
I haven't felt this in awhile, where everything in my body, soul, life hurts so bad I can't move.
I'm in pain, no matter what I do, I can't think straight, I can't talk without getting upset.
I can't be near people, I can't breathe on my own.
And I'm trapped in a space where the walls are all white, with my own reflection staring back at me.
I looked at myself for a good twenty minutes in the mirror today, in no way was I being vain, but dissecting the lines of my face and wanting to die.
I look like death has come over me and sucked anything living from within out.
I feel like death, like a shadow skimming surfaces with aching pains.
I don't know what to do with myself, here or anywhere else.
I feel lost with no home with no destination.
And I can't even talk to anyone about it because nobody would understand my state.
I feel like such a let down, like a lie.
But I seriously don't know what to do.
I snuck over to my old house and sat on the deck and cried, for a good long time.
I don't even know
I don't know
I have never felt so much pain before, I feel like someone tied my body to their car and drve for hours, leaving me skinned and raw.
Not only am I trapped here but my family is taking my breathe away,
I can't help you i don't even know what to do with myself.
I have no words.
stranded in a drive by.
I haven't felt this in awhile, where everything in my body, soul, life hurts so bad I can't move.
I'm in pain, no matter what I do, I can't think straight, I can't talk without getting upset.
I can't be near people, I can't breathe on my own.
And I'm trapped in a space where the walls are all white, with my own reflection staring back at me.
I looked at myself for a good twenty minutes in the mirror today, in no way was I being vain, but dissecting the lines of my face and wanting to die.
I look like death has come over me and sucked anything living from within out.
I feel like death, like a shadow skimming surfaces with aching pains.
I don't know what to do with myself, here or anywhere else.
I feel lost with no home with no destination.
And I can't even talk to anyone about it because nobody would understand my state.
I feel like such a let down, like a lie.
But I seriously don't know what to do.
I snuck over to my old house and sat on the deck and cried, for a good long time.
I don't even know
I don't know
I have never felt so much pain before, I feel like someone tied my body to their car and drve for hours, leaving me skinned and raw.
Not only am I trapped here but my family is taking my breathe away,
I can't help you i don't even know what to do with myself.
I have no words.