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Driving searching, hoping to find one blinking eye staring at me,
so useless, I only come to find my eyes dripping with my sweet surrender,
so I stop.
Drive to the the edge of the last stable ground, open my eyes and scream.
Scream for existence and breaking hearts, scream for defeat and those defeated,
scream for the reassurance infinity, and my voice goes on echoes through space and children's windows, waking the babies as they dream of the dark unknown.
And I'm never unannounced, always entering with spotlights and leaving with the loud crash of car doors and heart beats.
Either too far in or too far out.
And for once in my life I leave my door unlocked in hopes you come crawling in,
soaked in regret and fear.
As I leave your present at the edge of the bed surrounded in nothing but love.
And five pills in my eyes are heavy.
I wouldn't even feel the heat of your body if you next to me.
Life was easier, when love was a small speck on the radar,
who's that pretty girl with no one, the one who has everyone in her hands?
And it's no longer me, for I'm drunk deep sea diving, in a world I never wished to see so much of, and a world that slowly slip out of my grasps as I go to suck in my salty gin and tonic.
It was you I driving for, you I didn't find, you
the one I love, the one I love to hate,
the one who can keep me up all night on a thought
a whisper of a thought
a whisper.
I'm burning.
so useless, I only come to find my eyes dripping with my sweet surrender,
so I stop.
Drive to the the edge of the last stable ground, open my eyes and scream.
Scream for existence and breaking hearts, scream for defeat and those defeated,
scream for the reassurance infinity, and my voice goes on echoes through space and children's windows, waking the babies as they dream of the dark unknown.
And I'm never unannounced, always entering with spotlights and leaving with the loud crash of car doors and heart beats.
Either too far in or too far out.
And for once in my life I leave my door unlocked in hopes you come crawling in,
soaked in regret and fear.
As I leave your present at the edge of the bed surrounded in nothing but love.
And five pills in my eyes are heavy.
I wouldn't even feel the heat of your body if you next to me.
Life was easier, when love was a small speck on the radar,
who's that pretty girl with no one, the one who has everyone in her hands?
And it's no longer me, for I'm drunk deep sea diving, in a world I never wished to see so much of, and a world that slowly slip out of my grasps as I go to suck in my salty gin and tonic.
It was you I driving for, you I didn't find, you
the one I love, the one I love to hate,
the one who can keep me up all night on a thought
a whisper of a thought
a whisper.
I'm burning.