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im feeling a bit weird today and i think it might go on for a while.
Seeing as all things school have ended, i dont really feel like i have a purpose for everyday, when we were at maragret river it was good because there was something to do everyday but today i dont know what to do and when i look forward into the next few months, there are things there, gigs, festivals, relatives visiting...but nothing that feels concrete, these things will come and pass very quickly and right now in my house it feels dull, like i am a doll bludger with no point in life and no direction, i just dont konw how to occupy myself and what to do next, or how to get to were i want to be.
I think it's just the lack of structure, i need to create some structure in my days even if its not going to school or going to uni or working full time I dont want to feel like im on pointless holiday forever.
Its just today, just because its windy and I feel disconected from the world today, just becuase this morning i dreampt when i was half awake that my aunty called my mum to tell her that my pop had a heart atack and mum said "He'll be dead by the time i get there." The phone did ring this morning but it wasn't my aunty.
I hope you are all well xox
Seeing as all things school have ended, i dont really feel like i have a purpose for everyday, when we were at maragret river it was good because there was something to do everyday but today i dont know what to do and when i look forward into the next few months, there are things there, gigs, festivals, relatives visiting...but nothing that feels concrete, these things will come and pass very quickly and right now in my house it feels dull, like i am a doll bludger with no point in life and no direction, i just dont konw how to occupy myself and what to do next, or how to get to were i want to be.
I think it's just the lack of structure, i need to create some structure in my days even if its not going to school or going to uni or working full time I dont want to feel like im on pointless holiday forever.
Its just today, just because its windy and I feel disconected from the world today, just becuase this morning i dreampt when i was half awake that my aunty called my mum to tell her that my pop had a heart atack and mum said "He'll be dead by the time i get there." The phone did ring this morning but it wasn't my aunty.
I hope you are all well xox