All I want for Christmas is Stephen :(
I have just finished my first semester of classes...alive. Now time for exams. Tonight is gonna be funnnn (after I study for awhile) after all this weeks stress from last minute papers and assignments. 2morrow I have my Psych exam @ 1:30, then gotta jet straight to the Army Family Christmas Dinner or something like that with Stephens Mom...that should be good. Dont know whats goin down back here @ nite, but Im sure there willl be plenty of fun before we spend all day Sunday studyin. 2 exams Monday morning, then going to finish my shopping (no joy there). Tuesday morn, my last exam, then Athletics lunch "party" , then off to Stephens house for the night where we are having a pre-Christmas dinner and gift exchanging...I am getting my present from him (via his mom) but i wish it was him physically giving it to meeee :( I get to sleep in his bed and in his clothes and try to make myself feel like i am with him....yep Im a loser.
Last week his mom and I went out to dinner, then back to their house where I helped her w/ a bunch of stuff around the house, and we cleaned out Stephens closet (even after I swore to him that I would never clean his room again). I ended up just sleeping there. He has an enormus king size bed--comfty and lots of pillows...including this huge body pillow. So I woke up in the middle of the night, and I could feel something up against my back, it felt like a person..and his room and blankets just smell like him, so i was like OMG stephen is on the other side of me...i roll over and it was the body pillow...grrr...wishful thinking. I just remember all teh days we would just lay on his bed starting at the ceiling loving every second we were together... :( ok i dont wanna cry. lol. there is the loser in me again.
i went home last weekend undercover cause i didnt want anyone to see me...and for those few that did, they know it was not a pretty sight. i was a wreck to be blunt. last week so mentally hard for me that I couldnt take it anymore. I got so mad at my "best friend" that I didnt even wanna be in the same state as him...so I went to RI. The ride home was hell..it was hailing and raining, then i got lost cause i couldnt see a sign, but once i got into RI, my phone rang...it WAS FROM KUWAAAIIITTTT aghghhhhh i was sooo happy to hear from stephen, i was freakin out. so i got to talk to him for like 20 mins. amazing. the rest of the weekend i worked on his christmas present part #1 which is a scrapbook of pictures of me before i went to college...and then pictures of us together- it is so cute. i put lots of quotes in it and lil notes and lots of inside jokes. it is so adorable- i just hope it gets to Iraq when he gets there. I showed my friend Jay and he said that if he girlfriend ever gave him that he would prob cry cause its so personal and meaningful :) so that was good.
Yesterday I spent alll day doing a paper and getting the little things done. And I decided to add Abnormal Psych to my spring semester even though Im taking Social Psych too....I <3 pysch a lil too much sometimes...
well I am back on c-town the 22nd and Im still not sure if I am looking forward to spending a whole month there...but i Know i have the best friends on the planet there so it should all be good and fun :)
sorry that was really long and had lots of random spouts in it...but i dont care :) lol
<3 Katie