you're just becoming fodder for my best seller.

[frapucinoluver]

i want

not to be vindictive
not to be a bitch
not to be pathetic
not to be weak
not to be jealous
not to be angry
not to be waiting, waiting, waiting
not to have an addicition for difficult situations.

this will take time.
and in the end, you will not be a part of it.