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I made the mistake of telling you how I really felt about myself.
There are two voices; my heart, telling me that I am worth being loved, that I have beauty in me, that I am a good person. And my head, that tells me the sooner I recognise who I really am, the better. The voice that tells me to just stop trying, that tells me that I look like a fool. The voice that says "Who are you kidding?"
You tried to persuade me that the way I see myself is different than the way others see me. You told me that I was beautiful and worthwhile. You told me that I wasn't ugly.
I hear you talk about "those kinds of girls" the "not-pretty" ones, the "why is he with her?" girls. The "why is she wearing that?" girls. And I realize.. deep down inside, that she is me. That is who I am to the world. My head was right... who am I kidding?
Not even myself.
There are two voices; my heart, telling me that I am worth being loved, that I have beauty in me, that I am a good person. And my head, that tells me the sooner I recognise who I really am, the better. The voice that tells me to just stop trying, that tells me that I look like a fool. The voice that says "Who are you kidding?"
You tried to persuade me that the way I see myself is different than the way others see me. You told me that I was beautiful and worthwhile. You told me that I wasn't ugly.
I hear you talk about "those kinds of girls" the "not-pretty" ones, the "why is he with her?" girls. The "why is she wearing that?" girls. And I realize.. deep down inside, that she is me. That is who I am to the world. My head was right... who am I kidding?
Not even myself.