. º Wasn't meant to be º .
And so, within two months and a week, it's over again. The relationship obviously wasn't meant to be, we both know that now. Still, it's strange. It's all happening so fast.. One moment I'm telling you about my doubts, the next I'm ending it for real. Yet again my intuïtion has been right from the start, I should really learn to trust it from now on.
I don't know how to feel or how to act, I feel kinda abandoned as I sit here on my own, knowing the five of you are still there and having fun. That you don't give a shit whether I'm there or not. Good thing I have people to rely on; Thanks Aafje, Laurien and Joost.
I still wish things could've been better, I wish things could've been different. But I guess it just wasn't right. I just hope we can be friends again.. though I don't think that'll be a big problem.
If you want to read why it all happened, click the link below. Just remember these comments are from my point of view and none of it is meant to make anyone look bad.
The reasons why:
- I felt like I was just a friend, not a girlfriend who is supposed to be special. You treated me like all the others, just a good friend with benefits.
- The first few nights we fell asleep in each other's arms, the next few nights we held hands, the last few nights; nothing.
- My butt was bitten like ten times by fire-ants, it hurt like shit, not once am I asked if I'm okay. Makes me feel like you don't care.
- All you did was joke around, which is fine when you're friends. But when I'm your girlfriend I like to cuddle and kiss, too. But that was missing.
- You didn't have the energy for the relationship (and me) and my depression didn't help with that.
All in all, we're just better off as friends.
(Holiday pictures and stuff will be here as soon as I'm able to upload them)
I don't know how to feel or how to act, I feel kinda abandoned as I sit here on my own, knowing the five of you are still there and having fun. That you don't give a shit whether I'm there or not. Good thing I have people to rely on; Thanks Aafje, Laurien and Joost.
I still wish things could've been better, I wish things could've been different. But I guess it just wasn't right. I just hope we can be friends again.. though I don't think that'll be a big problem.
If you want to read why it all happened, click the link below. Just remember these comments are from my point of view and none of it is meant to make anyone look bad.
The reasons why:
- I felt like I was just a friend, not a girlfriend who is supposed to be special. You treated me like all the others, just a good friend with benefits.
- The first few nights we fell asleep in each other's arms, the next few nights we held hands, the last few nights; nothing.
- My butt was bitten like ten times by fire-ants, it hurt like shit, not once am I asked if I'm okay. Makes me feel like you don't care.
- All you did was joke around, which is fine when you're friends. But when I'm your girlfriend I like to cuddle and kiss, too. But that was missing.
- You didn't have the energy for the relationship (and me) and my depression didn't help with that.
All in all, we're just better off as friends.
(Holiday pictures and stuff will be here as soon as I'm able to upload them)